Diagnosed Autist, socially clumsy / clumsy socially. Just tryin' to get my art out. No 📱, no nerves. https://www.redbubble.com/de/people/AK-Hevonen/shop?asc=u https://www.instagram.com/akhevonen2024/ Such a long story, it makes grown men cry ALT = NEW
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Off to work, if I vanish for a while, I will be back later. The way it is, must hurry to get things done! #howIspendmyholidays #artist #wip #thomBrown #MatthewFoley #Dachshund #grateful Some people are yellow, some people are blue, Hector is orange, how are you!
WTF.. Here is Momma Bear From Hell, on her way to eat both! #handdrawn #noai #humanartist
She dresses the way I did. My cloth were mainly second hand, and I only cared very late for looks (thats Autism + social surroundings, Im proud I worked my way out of that! Selfresponsibility in western world. Only during severe MH crises I accept "lacks") Good night to you & Bank?y
Trans rights are, in fact, and always will be, human rights. And I will fight you about this. Pass it on.
In the UK, ‘trump’ is another expression for ‘fart’. I used to find that funny.
Vaccines are free IN TEXAS. Danielle Smith is an evil grifter and she's stooped us (AB) lower THAN MOTHERFUCKING TEXAS. TEXAS, Y'ALL. TEXAS.
Mine burned her own house down a few weeks ago. Blamed it on the kids. Now gets the remainders of the house all new done, as fetching a permission for building anew would take several years (bureaucracy, lack of staff = Germany in nutshell).
This is DEF not a real account, please do not fall for such scammers. NO actual person of power, whether in showbiz or Politics, would offer to talk to strangers. Evenmore, strangers without any connection to press, etc. Think rational #scam #careful @safety.bsky.app @support.bsky.team #thankyou
The owner of this account is a veteran, who payed a severe price for serving his country. Please consider this. Plus, in my years on this planet I learned that the most nasty ones are often those most visible, audible. BC they manipulate PPL AND bc PPL fall for them.
And another one! Must do it while feeling emotionally ready. Given 2Mr Jason Isaacs in 2018. More in ALT. #traditionalpainting #traditionalart #handdrawn #noai #jasonisaacs #bradpitt #JonBerthal #loganlerman #MichaelPena and that who claims 2be an artist while stealing fr other artists
Das ist sehr schön melancholisch. Love it!
Inpsired by a conversation here, a photo of a bird of prey. A highly curiously eying my Canon Batelour. Taken through wired fence. #photography #birds #Zimbabwe #Africa #shallIofferitonRedbubbleyesorno
CALPERNIA!!!! Why cant she be real, and maybe like me to be my friend.. 💜 #SoldiersGirl #LeePace #Transwomenarewomen #Transmenaremen #Transrightsarehumanrights
Worked so much, inspite the heat, that everyth is shaky, my fingers barely hitting right keys but I am also very grateful, satisfied. Tonight, 4 once, no nightmares, pls? #Painting #humanartist #handdrawn #freestyle #fantasy #spooky #nights
Some weeks ago #PBS broadcasted Sgt #KrisBattles & his art, we got in contact & his reaction was encouraging. Now I show them here, was afraid 2hurt someone w War PTSD but they wont see it, so I can, I think. Info = Alt #traditionalart #handdrawn #Veterans #service #reasons #tragic
TY 4 seeing me this way. I like owls, birds of prey (I could not keep any, though, bc I couldnt give them the mice, babychiken, yet its what they need. I could give it to them, but not keep "the food". Would break my heart). Sorry I missed this yesterday, no offense
This is so f*n sick...
Its an outrage. Those fine engines were build for defense, and not that of his ego... I get the soldiers having 2 consider their future etc, yet what about their oath, did I get that so wrong? (I am German, but love the USA since childhood).
T-H-I-S. Trump uses the Armed Forces as his pers Flying Monkeys, while he claims 2be innocent & the victim. The only "good thing" about that jerk is that he's an overt Narcissist = U KNOW what you're dealing with. His ref 2himself in 3rd person = similarities 2 Autism (I AM autistic, diagnosed)
PS: Did show this b4, as I give it 2 Mr O'Gorman, only am highly careful abt not taking credibilities fr War PTSD, PPL w even severer stories than my own. Struggled ages to accept mine, hence my anger at losely used words. TYSM, @pbsnews.org www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzCw...
Some weeks ago #PBS broadcasted Sgt #KrisBattles & his art, we got in contact & his reaction was encouraging. Now I show them here, was afraid 2hurt someone w War PTSD but they wont see it, so I can, I think. Info = Alt #traditionalart #handdrawn #Veterans #service #reasons #tragic
The DRAWING, not the man. On photos, he reminds me more of Jeff Goldblums' little brother, if he has any. Sorry for the confusion. Perhaps you would also enjoy Eis Am Stiel /Popsicle?
The UK Supreme Court took representation from anti-trans groups but none from trans groups or people, before ruling that even trans women with a GRC can not access women’s spaces. This creates unenforceable, dangerous and cruel restrictions on trans access to public space. It must be reversed.
NOW I remember whom your drawed face of him reminds me of! Matthew McConaughey!
How peculiar again, just listened 2 Michael Caine's audiobook, finally (wanted 2do so4years, as I knew the start , was fascinated how he & I grew up similary, insp time difference (and him having loving parents). He mentioned him a lot. So sorry for his family and friends, hope it was painfree.
I am a scared pepper. Look at that!
PS: Its interesting you say so, I hope I dont come across as a smart alec too much when saying that many native people share that believe, and that should be respected! We are all a bit different, without balance & respect, nothing will end well
Thanx! But Im not being photographicly endangered = isolated. Its more abt all autistic PPL I met struggling with it, while often get pushed into it. Photo taken of @rutasepetys.bsky.social at Hotelroom by me, our 2nd meeting. She is highly photogenic & NT = perfect!
Not without their permission, or under pressure. I know there're PPL who love being photographed, & well, Im a photographer. BUT I am pro privacy. And against that photo pressure I was often under. Got called rebellious bc I refused 2b photographed 4 youthhome photowall 🙄
PS: This painting, no ai, hand drawn, is avaiable on my Redbubble shop, next to 1179 other artworks, and I am constantly adding (my art is real human art, no fast style either, so it takes days) www.redbubble.com/de/i/t-shirt...
2020 or so.I really do not like being photographed, not the face. Its so intimate, & insp age long masking til I broke, I can smile now, yet it does rarely feel right. This is my normal "grim" look, was even worse til mid 30s, which makes it sadly hard 4 others to tell whats going on inside me.. 😞
with me, it was more like having a somewhat grim face, apparently. CONSTANTLY & fr all sides PPL would tell me, sometimes "nicer", most times not so nice, accusingly.. It made me feel very insecure, feeling like I dont belong anywhere. I still suck at Photos. Prefer being behind Cam
It’s so weirdly holistic too like I’ll see some picture of myself with other people in it and be like “damn I swear my body told me it was making but I guess not.”
My friend Jonathan Blake was the first man to receive an HIV diagnosis in the UK. He was an original member of Lesbians and Gays Support the Miners, whose story was told in the movie Pride. Jonathan was portrayed by Dominic West. He is still with us, still fighting injustice. Here at Trans Pride.
As a person w bad childhood, youth, young adulthood I wimper. What have I done to be born into where & how I am? I always tried, still do. 47years & counting. Yet most of the times I fail. It is not that simple. Dont repeat "their" black & white thinking. Dont let them turn into that
Worked so much, inspite the heat, that everyth is shaky, my fingers barely hitting right keys but I am also very grateful, satisfied. Tonight, 4 once, no nightmares, pls? #Painting #humanartist #handdrawn #freestyle #fantasy #spooky #nights
Tbh, empathy is not what most PPL think, empathic folks can easily manipulate others. I only "see" due 2my own story. When under stress, my wee empathy completely collapses like a cardhouse. Us
Verstehe das Problem nicht, kann aber den Typen auch nicht sehen (blockiert?). Meine Autismus Doktorin arbeitet als 1 d wenigen seit Anfang d 90er im Bereich und berichtet genau das Gleiche. Nur wenige Menschen m Autismus können wohl m heißem Wetter gut umgehen.
O dear, I am so sorry. Rents here are skyrocketing too, with too many people not earning enough from their jobs, while upper middleclass and topclass is thriving I also imagine it being highly frustrating & scary, given you just put so much effort into your house 😞
Ha! I justed posted a fish, but not here. Very cute.
We got rave reviews for Alphabet Rainbow’s Brighton Fringe Festival debut, now it’s coming to London. This fistful of queer plays will play: 7pm, 9 Sept - Etcetera theatre, Camden 7.30pm, 12 Sept - Bridge House, SE20 3pm/7.30pm, 13 Sept - Brockley Jack Please come! Booking links 👇 bit.ly/3HykSx1
I am muting you now, for I must work and also do not wish to bore other people, I can see you take that job rather seriosly.
Uhu, and every billionare actually works hard for their money 😂
Go on, please..
Nothing, am quite amused rn! Thanks for helping me getting the algorithm alerted!
Again, so much thanks for engaging with my art, the algorithm and I appreciate it.
TYSM for the engagement! Another person not grasping how algorithms work. TYVM indeed
Must finally work now. If I do not, I get anxiety, for my entire plan is messed up then. Autism brains are mean a lot. Thank you to all who turned notifications for my posts on! It helps, truly. Also bc my Redbubble is connected 2it, make only ca 200€ per year, but in my situation that's big!!
✨ HOW TO: support artists for $0.00 ✨ - leave a like! - repost their work - more eyes!! - comment on their posts! (an emoji goes a long way!) all of this means so much to artists and helps immensely!! just a reminder that support does NOT always have to be financial 🥰🤍✨
They praise the wrong Q! Thank you for the like, so much.
Ging mir auch so, mittlerweile bin ich selbst für lauten Metal zu ausgelaugt, dabei liebe ich es. DANKE. Es tut gut, das zu lesen. Ich bin seit 1999 an dem Thema dran, als Fridays For Future rauskam, hoffte ich, aber mittlerweile.. Wir könnten SO viel ändern.
The fact that I only now, after months of being here, managed to get my Bio done, shows you how done I am... #photography #animals #goats #exhaustion #autisticburnout
Ja, aber wir brauchen doch noch immer viele Flüge, besonders 4 Politiker*innen - Öffis führen soviel besser, wären diese auf sie angewiesen.. Oder Formel 1! Und jeder Depp muß seinen SUV haben! Und sowie so, Erdbeeren & Co im Winter! Wow, 4 Autismus habe ich echt ne Menge Sarkasmus, mittlerweile..
I 🫀 human art.
I love wolves. They are the better people. Too many humans blame animals for their own fault, just happening w our wolves in GER. It works in other Countries! #herdogs #kangal #CaucasianShepherd #dogs #wolves #herdprotection
Congratulations, and thank you, truly, for actually considering those working hard but not getting anywhere. Not many able people do, sadly
I am sorry. But then you can afford the vaccine, right? Am confused by what I read yesterday, correct me if I am mistaken
Also, they know the streets, better than most other ppl! BUT, only if they are what most PPL think of when thinking homeless. Technically, I was too when sharing tiny room w my only then friend 2 escape. My longtime friend lives in her small van since 9yrs (NO drugs, NO alc, disabilities, NO family)
That+ RL attcks, fr literally almost all sides, few PPL were kind, + animals, and I recall them all, filled with gratitude, holding on to their example (not easy..)
O, a loser without a cause, how boring.,
Lol, I thought you had some education... (in case you do not, which is mostlikely - there are apps. You know) #ableism
3/ rage against the machine song, yet nothing was in the news. Are too many already growing tired of the news, as so often.. is it no more entetaining enough for them?? WHERE ARE THE PEACEFUL BUT EN MASSE PROTESTS?! "Are you not entertained.."
2/ OR having somebody to do it for them being safe (that also goes for receiving help = why I spent 10years living like in isolation imprisonment in a cellar flat, insp a judge, a carer and homeoffice job. Sorry). This must stop, I heard abt PPL having planned a demonstration named after that..2/
I am so shocked by this all, how dare they touch children! He is not even allowed to drive a car yet! Damn it. One year more & the army coudl take it, like they did not do that before... In GER things grow rougher too, but not like that. We have that old prob of only those being able to fight..1/
PS: Why I feel that way: Those PPL r mainly very young. Apparently influenced by 1person only. But I must protect myself, if you ever had a 22k account (by then, like all Narcs they grow..) sent their enablers after you, you get that way. Those youngsters dont need me, so it should be OK, for them.
CALPERNIA!!!! Why cant she be real, and maybe like me to be my friend.. 💜 #SoldiersGirl #LeePace #Transwomenarewomen #Transmenaremen #Transrightsarehumanrights
Wines? Cheese? Nah, youngsters arent as bad as many portray them, take my supportworker, helping me since age 19, working since age 16 to finance university - it is only that those nasty lazy ones are visible so much.
I remember ppl getting good news/bad news when expecting to die they sold their life insurance for viatical money - then after the 1996 treatments they didn't die.
I am sorry, I wish I could help. Does your husband earn enough you two + four can live safe somewhat? And, silly question to ask a neurodivergent, I know, but could you try something else? I feel so weird, so many suffer in big & small, while other freeride on others. Not OK.
It sounds like me again! What is it today, call me out day? 😂
PS: Thank you, @naykrop.bsky.social (sorry, me again), for drawing my attention to this feed. And Sir I-forgot-your-name-again, sorry, how do you know... I am also always stiffened by disbelief (assumption of mine) when someone is able to express it.
I think it does, imho. Autistic too, w "past" (how much I was afraid of facing Prof Vogeley, in was 2010, & most people diagnosed here arnt fr where Im from). Was quite an angry hedgehog during teen years, now I simply cant no more. Nobody believs it anyways. So why stressing out. I try counting.
I hate it, actually. Just, ever since I had my experiences with Flying Monkeys, I am VERY careful (that is also why I only cautiously use the term Narcissism, it is a real pain in this world, in most cases NOT clinical, and should not be thrown aroudn lightly just bc 1 doesnt like some1 else)
Those poor people, follow it over the news. All I could do was paying the extra charge for Olive oil over last years, to help some farmers, at least.
O good, he describes my brain!
📚 No hay mejor momento que el de la lectura "agustito", no pierdas el hilo... #Marcapáginas 📖 de latón con grabado de letras 👉 https://bit.ly/3PNevqz #joyeríaartesanal #hechoamano #envíogratis
You have to meet @naykrop.bsky.social ! My brain is too tired, sorry, worked all day and just found out a bunch of wierd people, on my way of blocking the lot. Back, I should say.
HOW stupid must some kinda PPL be to block PPL by list? Without knowing, interacting? And if U knew the topic... unbelieveable. I crawled on the floor in agony from MH issues when they were still standing in mommy & daddy's selection shelf.. #flyingmonkeys #beware #think #yourself
Are these the new trend from China I head about, like, one buys them in a none transperant package, every purchase being a suprise?
TY, Matthew. Wishing soooo much I had your social skills. You make people shine, happy. That is a gift.
PS: If you need help with Watermarks for protection some day, let me know. I can help by doing it for you, or look stuff up, as I am not familar with OS, sorry. I use Corel PaintShop Pro 2019, and it does not operate on Apple.
Draw anything! Just splashes of color, lines, what ever. Discover shapes in objects around you, like when looking at a mug, you have a cylindric shape in total and an even circel on top, with a nice swirl for handle. Check reference colors, like this by Fab Mod. DO NOT let anyone stop you. ART = JOY
Matthew, those not being kind to you will be fed to Donald Trump, with a Coke. And besides, you have a fine sense for colours, something I struggled with ages!
Recovering from surgery. Attempted some art and thought it was good enough to share. Please be kind.
TYSM, Matthew XXXX
(Imagine me saying so with that Jurassic Park Founder's voice) "I really hate that man..." Painting I did in 2020. One day, Trump will pay, I hope. He actually believes the Armed Forced r his personal Flying Monkeys! And - SLAVA UKRAINI
To ask an autistic person, an ACTUALLY autistic one, to be able to well adress people is like asking a person without legs to walk on their own. Not my words, but those of dear Professor Gillberg. @utafrith.bsky.social
Why do PPL so often address well meant words to hard working PPL, but not the actual lazy ones, who sell themselves as victims, r always fit 2 have fun, yet never to work, creating scenes bc they read up on what actual sufferes think.. You dont know my story. Im still standing. Against many odds
CEOs of Redbubble, this one is for you. It is NOT for the hardworking small employees of Redbubble, who are at the paying end, just as we artists are.. #commerce #greed #rich #redbubble #artists
My bubble = 3 supportworkers, 1 Autism Doc, 1Psychiatrist + 1RL friend I met twice within 20 years. Sorry, and I mean no offence, but I am truly not what they show in media. Those words help them. Not me. Or PPL like me, which do excist, eventho invible. Im still standing, after all
That is spot on, but I lived until age 41 being told I was not worth it. It leaves marks. I still struggle buying thinx 4me, if I can at all, or merely promoting my art... as one can see, I DO IT. My life was no funfair, one learns that. But it still is painful and most of the times in vain.
And well off people. Is this not one of our major issues in this world? Them vs Us? Will we ever learn and fix that...
And well off people. Is this not one of our major issues in this world? Them vs Us? Will we ever learn and fix that...
4/ criterias in their education or media wise. The answer was ALWAYS "No". Which is absurd, given that 80% of us do live in western poverty, often inspite working..). Back 2 topic: Nonetheless I wonder how they manage to adapt like every month or two?? Do the apps get updated on such matters??
4/ criterias in their education or media wise. The answer was ALWAYS "No". Which is absurd, given that 80% of us do live in western poverty, often inspite working..). Back 2 topic: Nonetheless I wonder how they manage to adapt like every month or two?? Do the apps get updated on such matters??
3/so themselves, read it. And met a kind student of my AutismDoc, when my energy level was high enough to do annual lectures with her. As we totally lack education abt Disabilities + poverty. One of my questions to the students used to be whether they ever saw/heard abt PPL meeting both ... 3/
2/ are forced to seek new routes. I know abt PPL w impaired vision using apps since ever there are smartphone (luckily in GER they receive "Blindengeld", which enables them to do a LOT (but on the other hand displays how little politicians can imagine other needs, many visually impaired saying..2/
THIS. It triggers anxiety in me too. Simply didnt complain abt it publicly bc of my freakin stalker since 2018 who copycats all fr everybody, and bc I think it must seem so silly too. Like having no real probs. But it "hurts". Shops get instructed to change stuff fr headquarters, so customers ..1/
I hate this too. I can't form bloody routines to save my life and the decision fatigue of shopping can and will ruin my whole day if it becomes a sensory nightmare because I can't find what I need today!