I don't like being me sometimes. I don't like the way i have to fight with my own brain. My heart is trashed and my soul destroyed. And I'm supposed to keep on trying? Keep going? Why? To suffer more? Its bullshit.
I'm so tired. No human is illegal. Human rights for all. In a long term relationship with the moon. And your mom.
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I don't like being me sometimes. I don't like the way i have to fight with my own brain. My heart is trashed and my soul destroyed. And I'm supposed to keep on trying? Keep going? Why? To suffer more? Its bullshit.
Saw a truck yesterday with "Relax Gringo, I'm legal" across the tailgate and "Immigrants Built America" on the back glass. I let the gentleman know I loved his stickers and that many of us want him here, that I want him here. If you feel the same, let your neighbors know. They may not know.
Going to my first comedy show next month. Hell yeah.
We are done telling people that the stove is hot. Just let 'em touch it.
I don't understand the gun nuts and I especially don't understand why they feel that 730 in the morning on the first day of school is the best time to do it. It was 630 am yesterday morning!
The kids in my town return to school today. And some asshat is doing target practice with his very unnecessary gun. The rapid fire shots echoing through town should totally fit with the active shooter drills these kids will do. This is America.
My main work goal tomorrow is to make enough money to cover everything in my dispensary cart.
Awesome. I love the natural light in the room. 😍
The fun part about healing from trauma is thinking you're getting better but you may actually be backsliding and you're calling out your own trauma inducing behaviors so you shut down completely until your next therapy appt so you don't cause undue harm. Super.
love that being anxious makes you bad at sleeping and sleeping bad makes you feel anxious, whoever came up with that really nailed it
We've reached the I don't even want to shower phase of this round of major depression. Woooo.
I've got some sort of poison on my feet, ankles, and legs (or its an ass ton of bug bites), I had one after another shitty situations at work, hit a bird on my way home from work, and Amazon sent me another defective item to replace the previously defective item. I am not having a good time, y'all.
Going feral on a rotisserie chicken because it has been a day
I was out to lunch with my daughter and looked up at the TV on the wall. I can bet you all know what I saw on the breaking news. WHAT IS WRONG WITH THIS COUNTRY AND HOW HAS THIS BECOME PART OF LIVING IN AMERICA? OUR BABIES ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR STUPID FUCKING GUNS. FUCK. YOU. ALL.
Hey guys. We don't need to carve him into Mt Rushmore. We can draw him in with sharpie and cheeto dust.
Writing a book is freaking hard.
My up and down day at work ended on a big up. Then I came home and while smoking a joint, I was 8 inches away from a hummingbird while it sampled the feeder near me. The other really good thing has to happen today. It just has to.
I think I'm having a hot flash. Wtf is this bullshit and how long does this fuckery last?
Because you all needed a Turtles meeting... 🤣🤣 #bluesky
“I hate the word moist” oh no I am sorry to hear that Here are some wet brownies Got you this very damp muffin Here’s some banana bread that is positively soaking in its juices Is this better for you Did I do it
What's your favorite way to eat Nutella? I want all the ideas.
I'm all for the type of petty we are seeing from politicians and news reporters. It's becoming so entertaining.
Oh, you have something you want to say to me? Write it down on paper. Roll that paper up. Set it on fire. Drop that burning roll of paper into a glass bottle. Now shove that bottle so far up your ass you breathe fire. Then kindly fuck off. This is what I plan to say with the inevitable returns.
"once you have tasted the taste of sky, you will forever look up" -Leonardo da Vinci
Its a little early for seasonal change allergies and sinus issues but here we are.
I'm sweaty, dirty, aching from head to toe. Someone shower me.
Thankfully the pharmacy caught the mistake and it was fixed. However, I just now realized I forgot to go pick them up 🤣🤣🤣
Oh just thinking about all the things I never got to do as a kid because we (my parents) were too poor but I managed to do for my kids even though I'm a poor single mom.
I don't feel well today but I packed myself an adult lunchable for work and it made me feel slightly better.
Because nothing matters anymore. Nothing is real. Everything's made up and the points don't matter, my friend.
Update: The doctor's office called in the wrong meds. Correct meds will be called in today. 🤦♀️ I hate it here!
Exactly. None of this should be so difficult.
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Why do I physically feel the pain of my children? On top of all my other pain, I get to experience theirs, too. Awesome sauce.
My joints would like to announce that there will be thunderstorms this afternoon.
Yeah, I'm the total package If the package fell off a delivery van and immediately got run over by a bus.
Finally got that. Now just waiting on the seizure meds
J, I swear we talk about this every month. And just the other dsy, the pharmacy hadn't filled the script for the needle that I need to give myself my B12 injection. I asked if I was expected to drink it or maybe use osmosis? Said it wasn't filled because my insurance denied it. 🤦♀️
This month on Kat can't get her fucking seizure meds again! Pharmacy: doc refused the refill. Doctor: yeah you haven't been seen for a year and yeah, that's on us that we didn't schedule you but hey we can see you in October and you will be seeing a nurse practitioner because your doctor left 😡
Sitting outside before getting ready for work. Look up and see this strange lightning bolt looking thing in the sky but its not just a flash. Then hear the rumble of a rocket. Kinda weird living this close to the launch pad and not knowing when there's a launch happening lol
Started working out again. I'm going slow and not pushing too much too fast. But dammit I'm sore 😫
What's wrong with me? The shorter list is what's right with me. And that would be one half of my body.
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Yeah I'm not even sure when my last one was, so that is a huge deal for me. I'm sorry that happened to your friend. I doubt I'm gonna stop my meds any time soon, but I wish I could.
Packing em up for ya, friend!
I'm at a place where I'm wondering if I haven't had seizures because the meds are working or I haven't had seizures because I am no longer triggered by the root cause (whatever it may be) and I don't actually need the medicine anymore but I won't stop taking it because what if I really do need it?
Meet you halfway and we can swap!
Isn't all that tacky gold against the rules of the HOA or something?
Come on over. There's plenty!
Squirrel feeder filled. Bird feeder filled. Hummingbird feeders filled. Crock pot full of meatballs. I just feed everyone, apparently.
Sorry, yeah, I can't just do the casual thing anymore because see I slipped and fell into some feelings for this one person and now nobody else is even remotely interesting sexually so ya see I would if I could but I can't so I won't.
I'm an Eagles fan but I suddenly find myself a fan of a certain buffalo 😜
Also, something new to me this year...Mini Pumpkins in a bag like Reeses mini cups unwrapped.
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I love my kids so freaking much. Just 3 seriously amazing humans.
Work is super lame today so I'm cutting out and instead working on a project at home that I've been putting off. Seems like a better use of my time.
Has anyone seen my sanity?
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They are apparently shutting down the NASA visitors center near me. This is sad. Not just jobs lost but the education the center provides to people from around the world. Yes, world. I've met people from all over the world that traveled to my area just for the launches and visitor center.
*young me, developing a strong sense of justice* This is gonna be great, what an asset, this will never drive me insane
N: New York S: Florida W: Kentucky E: Where I live in Maryland, the only county in the state that touches the Atlantic Ocean.
Oh, if only.
I'm literally doing that right now
Pizza is still cool with me!
I feel like this should be a required uniform for construction dudes.
Yes, I cried over spilled milk. I cry over everything these days. Its called depression.
Worked a little this morning. Had therapy. Worked a little more and then milk got spilled in my car and I cried about it. Yeah, I know. Whatever. But I came home and said fuck work for the day. Cleaned my space. Did some laundry. Exercised a little. 19 is picking up our grocery order. Food time. ✌️
"But they're here illegally" I promise you I do not give a single fuck
Perfect.
If you're seeing this and you were supposed to call me back after your nap, you are not going to sleep well at all tonight and I'm sad you didn't call me back. Weirdo.
If you wish to be addicted at a disgusting level. Otherwise, save yourself.
I know I'm about to catch shit for admitting this but whatever. I just tried Nutella for the first time. I wish I had never tried it. It was best that I hadn't ever had it before. But now I wonder how I can possibly stay away because it WILL be the death of me because holy smokes, yummy 😋
look at this freakin guy people.com/crane-family...
I sure hope my therapist has her gold star sticker book ready for me tomorrow because damn I've been doing great with this boundaries thing this past week.
🤣🤣🤣 Not at all!
Someone is very butthurt that I turned him down for relations and now he's trying to find ways to insult me because I turned him down. He just seems so pathetic 🙄
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Those underglow kits these guys have on their trucks now remind me of nightlights. Little fellas are afraid of the dark and need their nightlights while they drive. Super cute.
the cicadas are screaming I might go out and join them
Hope all is well with you.
Heyyyyyy!! Missed seeing you around the webs
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Higher 😬
if I had any money I probably wouldn't for very long
Started working out again so that's a thing that's happening
Just deleted about 5000 pics from my Google photos. How many would you guess were NSFW?
Local asshole on electric bike just told me to kiss his ass. I'm not even sure wtf has just happened. I'm sitting in my yard minding my business. Probably a good thing my sons weren't sitting out here with me.
Why is it every time I say "I'm gonna take the day off to do xyz chores" I don't actually take the day off so I work AND do xyz chores? What is wrong with me? Why am I like this?
For years, when dropping trash at the local dump, I would check the "put and take" for old bikes for my youngest to fix up or get parts from. He owns a motorcycle now, y'all. This momma is not okay. 🥹
i think if you dropped me into a giant pachinko machine, my body striking various pins as it made its way down before limply hitting the bottom and disappearing, it would rid of a lot of muscle knots
No one gave a shit if a gay man was lonely navigating a homophobic society. No one gave a shit if a woman was lonely in an abusive marriage. No one ever gave a shit if the Black kid in a white school was lonely. But we all need to care about straight white men being lonely. Miss me with this bs.
I wish life 360 didnt tell us speeds because that's instant heart attack. 🥹
Helmet for sure. I am so not okay though.
My baby turned 18 less than a month ago. My baby just purchased a motorcycle. I am not okay. 🥺
I really really don't want to work today. I am so worn out. Run down. Just spent. I can't keep doing this. I love what I do but I'm just not feeling it today. Unfortunately my bank account said it doesn't care because its feeling empty and demands my sacrifice 😔
Yesterday I got bad blisters from the shoes I wore to court. Back of my ankles just raw. I forgot about that until I just quickly removed my socks and holy hell I ripped off so many layers of skin 😫
I'm done. I'm done with so many things. Just done.
Why isn't "I'm not interested" enough for people to leave you alone?