... It's interesting getting told that uh, kind of suicidal intrusive thoughts that one's had for around a decade and a half isn't normal.
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Getting on lexapro and adderall and suddenly going months at a time without suicide even crossing my mind was certainly A Revelation.
aug 31, 2025, 9:27 pm • 9 0 • view
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aug 31, 2025, 9:35 pm • 4 0 • view
Me to my therapist: I know everyone deserves happiness, but have you considered that I alone am fundamentally broken and unworthy of love? Therapist: ::sighs deeply::
aug 31, 2025, 9:29 pm • 9 0 • view
Literally every single week.
aug 31, 2025, 9:39 pm • 7 0 • view
My therapist: what would you tell someone else going through what you are going through? Me: that they don't have to feel this way, and that they deserve to feel okay, and that I'm here to love and support them. My therapist: Right. So ... ? Me: we've been through this. I'm different.
aug 31, 2025, 9:42 pm • 10 0 • view
The analogy I use is that when you're depressed it feels like you have the clearest possible view of yourself, in much the same way that you have the clearest possible view of a well when you're stuck in the bottom
aug 31, 2025, 9:51 pm • 5 0 • view
Yup. “everything is awful and irredeemable and will never change” is exactly as false as “everything is perfect and beautiful and will never change”
aug 31, 2025, 11:30 pm • 3 0 • view
and then she gently told me that no, most people did not obsess over their perceived failings from decades ago. Anyhow I guess Im trying to say that this is a whole mood
aug 31, 2025, 9:35 pm • 4 0 • view
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aug 31, 2025, 9:34 pm • 4 0 • view
lifelong sufferer here. antidepressants help but haven’t totally fixed things. it does get better.
aug 31, 2025, 9:33 pm • 3 0 • view
❤️ That's... at least good to know.
aug 31, 2025, 9:35 pm • 2 0 • view
The more you know!
aug 31, 2025, 9:25 pm • 17 0 • view
And for anyone worrying, I'm just going to start looking for uh, someone next weekish.
aug 31, 2025, 9:35 pm • 17 0 • view
Girl, it’s hard work but it’s so, so worth it. ❤️
aug 31, 2025, 9:44 pm • 3 0 • view