who cares about the usual screeds that we all feel like doing after something like this. they don't do anything, they don't mean anything, we just absorb it like we absorb every other American horror and keep going about our shit until the next thing happens

it was a few blocks over from us. even that doesn't feel like it matters. We're all next to it and we're all in a different world from it

I’m so sorry Erik.

they do """emergency drills""" at daycare. the thought of my child even inhabiting that headspace for a second, just "practicing" it during a normal day, makes me basically black out for a second

I used to teach high school teachers, which involved visiting them in their classrooms. I remember the first time I got caught in a lockdown drill it made me depressed for a solid week

anyway. time to send some emails!