I definitely feel that. It feels like for the last almost going on a decade now I've made steady but great strides in a journey of self love and acceptance, but I still struggle with finding the people who accept me and then being a good friend in turn and letting people in.
I've joined my local DSA chapter about a year ago and I've met some great people there. Highkey I worry about losing them if I end of having criticism of the chapter or if they let me down.
I've heard whispers online of marginalized people being discontent with white leftists that don't have diverse voices in their coalitions,
and I have heard the general consensus of the chapter seemingly err toward "there's no struggle but class struggle!" enough times to make me raise my eyebrows, but I really want this circle to be solid and not have to have any friction come to a head.