same people who berated me for working part time and teased me for working 3-4 hrs. when i expressed i was okay with these hours bc of my chronic back pain and fatigue, i was called "lazy" and "childish". today my sister said this is the "real world" and i have zero excuses for my behavior
so needless to say today sucked really fucking badly but i did do something: i quit my job, did my homework, and sent out some emails looking for research with insects.
i also had another job lined up so i will reach out to them next week about my availability. i really hope for the best this time. i need a win right now.
want to maybe read 10 pages of a book tomorrow so i can still finish two books this year
day 6: long and hard day. i hate health insurance. i crashed in bed when i got home at 5:40 and woke up at midnight. Yay. just did homework today
day 7: kind of a weird day? i didn't do much except sleep and run the table for my student org. at my sleep study rn
day 8: soaking my cashews
day 10 (realized i counted a day wrong): the cashew milk was .... okay ? it taste really nutty so i will probably add more honey to it to sweeten it up. i was gonna use it to make homemade ranch but we'll see, idk if it needs to be sweeter or not, but i'm glad it kind of worked out
tmr will probably be a homework and read day and. gulp. maybe a draw day ? i've been feeling the urge but mannnn that perfectionism won't let me even think about touching a pencil bc i've already predicted how shitty and bad and evil my art will turn out. but we will try
day 11: i did do a lot of hw and had an OCD spiral so that was ... not fun. will be finishing up hw today and maybe practicing viola. i want to read so badly and not find myself obsessively scrolling on tumblr anymore.
day 12: hw and cleaning my bathroom ... i'n so happy its clean now. next up is laundry and finishing hw before class on tuesday