I got a raise at work, even after stepping down from my promotion that really wasn't a promotion, and over been able to clear out some lingering debt and now I can say that I'm completely debt free and ugh it makes me feel so good after barely scraping by for so long.
I've been focusing on growing my TikTok channel that talks about fragrances, but I'm thinking on pivoting to exploring big guy fashion and lifestyle... we'll see how that goes but here's a link www.tiktok.com/@eau_de_bear...
Honestly? It's really helping my self esteem and depression. I feel more confident and I'm not always lonely and pessimistic...Maybe I just needed a hobby? I'm actually making progress in therapy and am working on getting to the point where I can put myself out there to make friends and maybe date.
For the first time in my life, I feel like a functional, whole adult. I am living in a (older) two bedroom by myself, I have a good car, a decent job that pays a good wage. I have varied interests and hobbies. I feel like I'm charismatic, friendly, and easy to be around and to get to know.
I still have work to do on myself, like figuring out how to go out by myself and initiate conversation with people, for instance. But I really do feel like I'm breaking through my trauma to get too that point, for the first time in my goddamn life, after nearly 50 years on this planet.
Now there is this part of me that scared that it's too late to make friends and/or find love, but that's okay. For now, I'm actually okay being by myself. And I do have hope that everything I want is within reach. I believe in myself. Finally.
This is very awesome. 😁
Hey you, this sounds all amazing! You can do this 🫂🫂🫂🫂
Really happy to hear about all these positive changes! 👍
Thank you Stan 🩷🩷
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I'm so happy for you hon. You have been fighting this for so long, and your glow up is so inspiring. Literally tearing up as I type this. Keep up the good fight. 💜
Thank you baby. That means so much to me.🩷🩷🩷
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It's definitely not too late! Met one of my friends when he was your age and we're really close now. But it's great that you're moving in the right direction and I've always believed in you, for what that's worth.
Thank you babe