But some of the more toxic, self-loathing gays then…if they get to the point of becoming self-aware of it even and don’t destroy themselves in the unbearable performance of projecting heteronormative “normalcy” until they can’t bear it anymore. Part of me pities them as they need help and 1/3
none is in sight. Another part wants to be there when Life breaks their hyper-inflated egos and then help them recreate themselves in a healthier version. Life has a tendency to do that through consequences, that would be considered cruel if another human were to deliberately bring those about. 2/3
But I cannot dehumanize them since I know all they want to achieve with these obsessive-compulsive “performances”, is to be “loved”. They have no idea what love really means but theirs certainly is the very foundation and fuel for their conviction that they’re “doing good/right” by themselves.😓💁🏻♂️ 3/3