I keep on going to this twelve step group, tho I'm not sure exactly why. I'm an atheist, and my compulsive behavior problems were pretty much brought under control when I finally got medication for bipolar disorder. But anyway. Last week, we were discussing our Higher Powers. 1
This lady said she walked into the woods and said to God, " Show me who you are and what you want me to do." And immediately, she had a life changing spiritual experience. 2
I was driving while I was listening to this, but I thought what the hell, why don't I stop being cynical and ask God the same question. So I did. At a stoplight, out loud. "God, show me who you are and what you want me to do." 3
IMMEDIATELY this voice in my head, which sounded suspiciously like my mother, said, "I showed you Buddhism. Shut up and practice it." Well, okay then. 4 Fin
I'm not gonna argue that this proves the existence of God, but I will say that this was about the only thing God could have said that I would have listened to. Which just goes to prove something or other. Fin
Well, I mean, the answer was right there already. Sometimes you need a map to tell you you’re not as lost as you thought you were.
I modified the 12 Steps (and i have a copy if you like) to help keep my MH (bipolar) life accountable. Going on some decades now. My problem is rules that have loopholes (I'm very good at finding loopholes) It is a weird transition when the old problems were really all these new problems all along