- struggle with focus for years, feel depressed/anxious often - diagnosed with ADHD, get meds, feel better - finally acquire the ability to lock the fuck in, grind a lot - end up with a compressed nerve and muscle spasms that get worse when I draw - brain's willing, but body can't handle it now - 😔
Body is so fragile, i tend to be extra careful too ( especially with my back) It's so frustrating when we cannot do what we want because of this. Sending you my best vibe ( and to @nonoworks.bsky.social too !).
I wish my meds made me feel that good too, everytime I've taken pills for ADHD I end up feeling like I struggle to think. I always drop them after some time because I genuinely see no betterment and feel better when I don't take them.
Sorry to hear it. Hopefully something can be done to correct the issue. =(
I'm not giving up and I never will -- and I think the trigger point injections helped a little bit. But I haven't been able to draw without physical consequences for...months now? Years? I dunno anymore. I used to dream about spending all day drawing, but I don't think that's gonna be possible.
I love to draw, but I also love to write, and sing, and maybe other stuff I haven't discovered yet. I thought art would be the main pillar of my existence, but it'll probably just be one of many. And that's cool! I've always liked doing lots of different stuff, anyway. I will never, ever give up! 😤
If disability was ever a stopgap, Tony Iommi wouldn't have become one of the most iconic metal guitarists. BrolyLegs would've never become a pro SF player. NGL its a damn challenge. I am still learning what is 'enough' for my ADHD/dysthymiac brain. But I'll be damned if it takes away my dreams.
hell yeah, brother 😤🤝😤
I had this kind of epiphany last night too... Akai, you're going to always do the damn thing, boss. Never ever think you won't. Everything you achieve is so damn cool. I say this as a follower of your work for nigh a decade.
thank you, dude 🙏💙 gonna keep doing my best, always
You already know
that sucks, i hope you can recover somehow (idk what it would take)
Damn, it's the good with the bad every time 😞
Even if I want to do something, when my body doesn't respond the way I want it to, I sometimes feel frustrated by this dilemma. I have had a frail constitution since I was a child and suffer from chronic anemia, so if I push myself a little too hard, I get sick easily. So I empathize with you
It's definitely frustrating...but you make some amazing art anyway, and I'm grateful we get to see it. 😊 Let's take care of ourselves as best we can and keep drawing when we're able 😤🤝😤
As I get older, I realize that if I push myself too hard, it will come back to haunt me in the form of serious health problems. So now I try to focus on continuing to draw at my own pace without forcing myself. You have been creating amazing works continuously for a long time, That's great!!
that's the smart way to do it, I'm glad you're drawing at your own pace instead of pushing past your limits! and thank you, nono!! 😊
I'm really sorry man. It's complete ass that just drawing can cause so many painful issues to the body. It's good to see you're not being totally discouraged by it, but I can understand that feeling of frustration. It shouldn't have to be this hard.
I appreciate it, homie -- it's all good though, could be much worse and I'm glad I can still draw at all. I miss doing animations a lot, or working on other longer-form art that needs extra hours to complete, but limitations will just force me to get more creative. 😤 And I might heal yet, who knows!