Sometimes airing out frustrations can help instead of letting them rattle around in your mind, you're perfectly valid in doing so when needed & there's nothing wrong with that. Think everyone here is understanding & not judging you for it. Sorry to hear it's been rough, hope it gets better soon
I just wish I had family of any sort. The only person to reach out to me is my grandfather who's not blood related, and he's got cancer for the 3rd time / dealing with his own stuff. My parents and their families have never wanted me, or reached out when I've contacted them.
Damn, sorry to hear your grandad has to go through that again, hope he beats it for the 3rd time. It absolutely sucks your parents & the rest are like that, a shame when you can't rely on your own fam for some support. That being said, hope you are aware that despite everything, you are tough AF