This led to my first real experiences with bullying. These experiences sort of compounded and fed into themselves because, you know how kids are. I trained myself to just assume no matter how someone was acting on the outside, they were looking to embarrass me in a few minutes or days.
And when covid happened, I just sort of solidified that mentality and just became that person.
Now I half wish I wasn't this way and half really like not caring. If I were to get professional help or something I'd probably stop being "me" to some extent that I don't know if I want, especially not when I just need to get things done in uni.