Grief is fuckin' weird y'all. This is a death in the family we've all seen comin' for more than a year, so it's kinda past the point of bein' at peace with it. I don't know if it'll hit me tomorrow (today?), more likely it'll sneak up on me in a month, but it definitely colors everything right now.
Truly doesn't help that there's not a lot of reason to be happy nowadays what with *vague gestures to everything* but things get double-extra complicated when you gotta untangle the Worldwide Dread Malaise from the Loss of a Loved One Malaise.
I truly wish shit was better so I could more easily tell when I feel worse.
I'm so sorry for your loss.
Hard to process stuff when you’re pelted with a million things. You’re left trying to figure out how you are feeling in the moment. Or getting numb to things or realizing “wow I’m feeling worse off then I imagined. I’m beyond depressed rn.” Its understandable. I’m so sorry for your loss man
I hope that whenever you settle it , it will be a clear journey during it