Ugh dang it.
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Ugh dang it.
I'm not quick enough with these catchy things. I need alliteration J names.
Yes. I remember this. Literally watch my husband deliberate. I tell him to buy the expensive ones. What's it matter because can't afford either of them anyway. You spend 16 hours a day in them, it matters in that way.
Lucy reminds me there are good things in the world. Little joys that brighten the day. Quiet, small breaths. 🥰
Exhausted from the decades of disinformation from our own government. I question everything ever said or written down. If anyone can be manipulated, influenced to change their statements, what should I believe? Nothing out there can be trusted. If the media is complicit, why should I listen to it?
Happy Birthday Tracy! Enjoy every moment! 💓💓💓💓
I just posted the long journal entry exercise for shadow work. It's deep pain work. Feels good to move through it. Let it out, cry for that little girl.😢
4. Integrate and Acknowledge: Acknowledge the shadow without judgment and then integrate it by resolving the past issue. Rereading the journal entry. It's not triggering me to cry as hard. Still stings. Chest tightens. I sigh... 5/5
3. Seek Positive Intent: Ask it questions like, "Why are you doing this?" or "What positive intent are you trying to fulfill?". Positive Intent of reappearing negative messages is to allow me an opportunity to have realization moment. Uncovering the who do you think you are? You unlovable POS. 4/5
2. Engage in Conversation: Imagine having a dialogue with this "thing" or past version of yourself. Why are these negative messages bubbling up? Instant internal voice says WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, TRYING TO HEAL? YOU DON'T DESERVE IT! crying now, I verbalize, "I do deserve it." 3/5
1. Invite the Shadow: Choose something to work with, such as a past pain or feeling of unworthiness. Focus on repeated messages family said to me 😔 and the feelings of being unlovable. Emotions weren't allowed, so I didn't have any opportunities to practice regulating anger, accepting mistakes.2/5
Whew. Just did a journal shadow work exercise. Triggers from the dreams, deep pain of core beliefs about myself. Crying. This is a continuous exercise, not a one off. I'll include steps of the AI exercise in case you might find use of it: Inner Dialogue Exercise 1/5
I see you. It's a lifelong learning experience.
Yes. Immediately knowing it's a chaos magic month. Alright, I kept saying that I wanted that, so slowly accepting this lesson for the month. Actually doing work with it.
The energy September has brought me is not appreciated. Like this MF lesson again? Okay then. We're not going higher until we integrate the new story. Narrative therapy for myself. 😮💨
It's a trauma brain loop. It's why I focus on radical acceptance and self-compassion. Learning to love myself after 47 years of self hatred is a daunting task.
If I don't give in to the anxiety, telling me I need to get up and clean everything every day, I can finish early. I feel guilty for sitting. 😞🤷
Went back to bed after outside with the dogs. More dreams for 3 hours. Still exhausted. I think I'm past this shit, and it will pop up again. I am aware of it now in real time. Why the fuck are you on this loop? Pulling focus is difficult. 2/2
I had vibrant, emotional dreams last night. Woke up at 5am, ruminating on every shameful behavior ever, feeling weighed down and exhausted. 1/2
Oh Tim, my condolences. Such a beautiful soul, always ready for love. Fly free sweet Moo Moo. 🌈
A forced break. I'd take it.
Gotta bring the crowd to talk in front of. Otherwise it'd be crickets.
Self love. I'm always working on it.
In Prince's name, Amen.
Seriously need more of his energy in the world. 😊
How fantastic. Hugs 🤗❤️
Raven
Tasty ears 🐰
Get well soon, and I hope pho helps. 💓✨ Being sick is the worst shit
Whew, stay safe. ✨💓
She's finished!
Mine is shriveled and gone. Fuck you female reproductive organs, all of you. Did me dirty my whole life. I cut you out and walked away. 😈 Now I'm left with the demon in my head. 😈🤘🔥
Holy cow. The vocals are 🔥🔥🔥 youtu.be/Tnmnw345Gbo?...
WOW. Her voice is amazing. ✨ Source: YouTube share.google/7IKfbkwDVOJ3...
I'm here if you want to chat. I understand losing Ruby left a hole in your heart.
Oh ffs not again. I'm so sorry you're experiencing sickness. It's almost impossible to not get it. Unless you're my husband. 😒
40 seconds to get it *just right*
This here is me too.
Podcasts ...
I am cautious about the files that are released. The IC causes fuckery everywhere. You are wise to be cautious too.
Woohoo 🙌 be weird my friend! I love it! Find the joy of your life in the little moments.
I finished the line work. I get lost if I don't do that first. It's very meditative. ✨💓✨💓✨ Now I'm going to use the new portrait set of markers. Stay safe and be joyful for 1 minute. Combat the fear. 💓✨
I make sure I stay away from the news. It's propaganda. Funny how easy joy and gratefulness seep back into my life.
Who else wants to just lay on the floor with them mauling your face?
Curious what you have been told. Honestly, in my view, everything about living on Earth as a human being has to do with the UFO phenomenon.
Scream singing Bob Seger again! Southern Rock speaks to my soul.
Oh to squish her lovely face. 😍😘
Immediately thinks about The Other Guys homeless men orgy scenes. 😆
Seriously people. I don't fuck with any water down here. Me: It's so goddamn humid why are you even outside?! I am not built for southern living.
Hair Of The Dog -- Nazareth 🤘🔥 NOW YOU'RE MESSIN WITH A SON OF A BITCH
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Everyone loves the new bed. If you get up, well you lose it. It's a hit! At only $10. I guess I'm getting a couple new ones to replace the broken down ones.
Thank you 😊
Thank you Christy! I think it's time to regrow her topknot.
Addiction really robbed me of memory. Today is Jersey Mae's 13th gotcha day. I got her a new bed. Last night I put it in the chair with us and she laid in it, lolol. I love you so much sweet girl.
Congratulations! I'm excited for you! ✨💕
Mmmm we are going to be busy ! ✨🔥
Thank you so much. 💕✨ I did have fun.
Mmmmm. I will have to make this for my husband. He loves chocolate cake donuts with cocoa glaze.
A dream of mine too. My husband told me today he wants to get his CDL license so he can get a local delivery job. A dream of his. I said go get it! It will open up opportunities for him nationwide and I can go try for PhD programs anywhere.
Cowbell used in many of my 70s rock. Jethro Tull flute is 🔥🔥🔥🔥
Whew. I finally sat down and we're going to watch the new karate kid movie. Enjoy your relaxing night. 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
Awww how sweet. Foxy telling all her crew.
Hahaha my neighbor feeds all the cats. I feed her outside kitty who likes to hide under our house. I saw her bowl probably got ate by critters last night.
Woo it got super humid 🥵 after it stormed. But it was awesome to hear it inside Walmart. The roof is tin sounding.
Awesome song! Ruby is like c'mon Mom it's my foxy friend! Foxy even wants to touch noses. 🐾🦊❤️😘
I know she needs it but she's 13. At this point, momma doesn't have 3k to help her. I apologize to her a lot but she literally doesn't care. I don't know if she's in pain. She acts as she always has.
Still chaos magic ✨✨✨✨ I'm so happy for them! No slowing down 👎🤘🤘🤘🤘😈😈
What a handsome, smart shirt! Such a gorgeous boy. I hope everything goes well at the vet. Worry about our babies is heartbreaking.
Damn. I'm sorry to hear that! Shit sucks balls.
Have a wonderful time! ✨❤️
Live dangerously! 😆🤘
Everything little bit helps them out! It's a great way to honor Ruby. 💕 A ritual of joy and generosity.
Awwww the softness of the furry. Jersey Mae has a silky coat. I understand wanting to soak up all of her when she's groomed. Poor thing reeks usually because of her teeth. Her feet neck and face are permanently dirty. I still love her filthy !!!
Wearing bright orange blouse and matching makeup. Allowing myself a day out. No agenda. I told my husband IDC if I even get everything we are out of. He agreed. To hell with that. Just have fun. Relax. 🎃
You're a good one. I anticipate seeing your other artwork for the emotions. Great series idea.
YAY! Here's me and Jersey Mae when I first got her! 6 months old. 🥰 🐾 Celebrate the good moments. Goddess knows there is plenty of bad.
I enjoy spreading my joy to others. Being authentic is wonderful. The Goddess honors my duality.
This is me. Going to the store to get out of the house. Decided it's good for me but not my knees. 😒🎃
I hope you got lots of cuddles with Ted. 🥰🐾✨❤️ Chatting with a friend is lovely too. I'm glad you're doing well.
Serendipity! ✨🥰🐾
I decided to get up and have fruit. Now I'm going to shower and get ready for a grocery run. Run towards joy. Getting out of the house will be good for me.
I could get lost in those beautiful eyes of hers. 😍
Sitting after coffee. Didn't sleep well, woke up at 230am, tossed and turned. Gonna be a slow day.
YAY! Here's me and Jersey Mae when I first got her! 6 months old. 🥰 🐾 Celebrate the good moments. Goddess knows there is plenty of bad.
Yes, that was my first thought! Look at his bright eyes. He knows happiness and safety.
He looks so happy and pain free now. You're an angel.
Now I see they are swirls not roses. Lolol I'm wrong again. It's perfect, the little pumpkin and ghost. ✨☺️
Oh I love it! Especially the roses. Awesome 👻
My day is done. In bed with my girls. Snuggled up the covers. 🩷🩷 I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. 🌞
I will admit I don't know anything much about space. 🤷
Yes, I will continue to be kinder and spread joy to others. Authentic encounters really do bring out the beauty of others.
🙏🩷 beautiful girl Carly 🩷 rest well 💕 wonderful ornament
I don't like the 12 steps program either. I did it myself after 2 days of detox.
I tried to comment earlier and it said the post was deleted.
Oooh thank goodness for no bath! Stay warm today. ❤️
WTACTUALF bahaha I've never been to NYC
I've lived in the countryside most of my life and my husband spoils me by going to the stores to pick up stuff. He definitely has stories like yours. Sketchy places...
