3:20am Can’t switch off Poorly this week Face swollen one side ‘Under observation’ God I’m so bloody fed up
AuDHDy, Syni, NBi, Cats, Lego, Autistic Researcher: Trauma, Creativity & MentalH (lived experience) FRSA, Qualified geologist & Palaeontology/Stratigraphy, Artist & Illustrator, Sound-sci art, ND Advocate, ‘difficult’ over being lied 2 /gaslit/injustice
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3:20am Can’t switch off Poorly this week Face swollen one side ‘Under observation’ God I’m so bloody fed up
Our country is being destroyed. But hey, look at these eight Maine Coon kittens.
Unsurprisingly, just like human animals. "Night nests are intricate sleeping platforms often built as high as 20 meters in the tree canopy and including comfort elements such as pillows, blankets, mattresses (linings) and roofs to protect from adverse weather" phys.org/news/2025-08...
Positive Behaviour Support (PBS) is one of the most pervasive & harmful practices used with Autistic & ND children. PBS teaches & reinforces that a young person’s natural ways of being are wrong [leading] to masking, burnout, & trauma. @autisticrealms.bsky.social: autisticrealms.com/why-pbs-is-h...
How many autistic people have we found, so far? Just about none in the older age groups. Much needed new research from this top duo. kclpure.kcl.ac.uk/ws/portalfil...
Nowt to say
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:( Sorry to hear that - it can sometimes be a trauma response
Still waking at 4 Still more nightmares Still am scared Still getting no help Sill in pain
There are survivors reading this who are in the position of being told to seek help for their PTSD-- from the very institutions & organizations that caused their PTSD. We need (way) more trauma recovery services not affiliated with major medical institutions or the military.
Making them wear high-visibility vests over camo is such a good joke you couldn’t write it
Still awake Still nightmares Still scared Still no help
I can’t ring people I don’t know buy flowers online sort or book holiday or flight Its desperately embarrassing to ask for help & makes me feel useless & less I can touch time notice things others can’t 3D draw/picture in my head World build story’s Today I feel even more useless & less #FUBAR
Excellent presentation on #COVID by Dr Nancy Malek. This is a presentation for Doctors but it’s really worth watching. www.youtube.com/watch?v=GPUT...
Awake Nightmares Fubar
Asking for help is not just complicated for trauma survivors because of our "trust issues." It's also complicated because our culture's attitude toward & poor understanding of trauma means few people in the world know how to realistically support a survivor who does reach out.
Called it out as feeling discriminatory from the start I believe it’s harmful not only to us but them too, they’ve lost my vote over this and their reputation I feel Needs dealing with
www.cityam.com/rachel-reeve... The ‘working people’ statement is offensive to a lot of people who are disabled and elderly. It’s cultivating a view that if you get sick or retire you are no longer useful. They have had so many complaints about this. Still they persist.
Breathe Breathe Breathe
Sweden never had a lockdown but they have a high prevalence of long COVID cases. Also now we have long Covid in toddlers who never lived through lockdown. www.news-medical.net/news/2023102...
Nature is crazy.
“Private healthcare in the U.K. is increasingly framed as a necessity rather than a luxury. The strategy is clear enough: starve the NHS of resources, drive down quality and availability, and patients will get used to looking elsewhere.” Today’s col. www.theguardian.com/commentisfre...
1. History isn’t there to be liked or disliked. 2. History is there to be learned from. 3. History offends you? Even better. Then you’re less likely to repeat it. It’s that simple.
New review in BMJ by @nicktsergas.ca: "Why scientists are rethinking the immune effects of SARS-CoV-2" "People who are unwilling to consider the possibility of immune damage are perhaps driven by a fear of what those answers might mean." www.bmj.com/content/390/...
Hearing people say that the Crows/Ravens will overthrow us one day, meanwhile, i'm already feeding them and thinking "yes please!" and now i'm like "can you...can you overthrow us sooner rather than later? pretty please. I have shinies and peanuts."
This is the burden on our NHS of non-hospitalised #COVID infections and the more that catch reinfections the more that will go onto need help for chronic health problems. Risk is cumulative, so the more times you catch this virus the higher your risk is.
This is from a leading #Longcovid expert. Risk of death lasts a year after any infection. Risk of all the below chronic health conditions lasts 3 years ( but note that was the length of the research, so could be longer?). Wear an ffp2 in addition to vaccinating and ventilated rooms.
Hopeless
to t i r e d t o t e l l u i m t i r e d s t i l l
Hey artists: one covid infection can literally steal your creativity. This illness changes your brain. Long Covid isn't rare. Wear a mask.
You don't have to understand what someone experiences in order to accept and acknowledge it. It just requires being able to listen and have an open mind.
This wasn’t just a security breach, documents obtained by NPR from a hotel guest who found them on a printer revealed something even more disturbing: a planned luncheon in honor of Vladimir Putin. The menu literally read, “In honor of his excellency Vladimir Putin.”
Sorting stuff absent a while am ok
Cat sat next me & won’t leave They know don’t they
“I hope things improve” “Well they aren’t going to so I’ve just got to live with it” “Aww don’t be so negative, don’t give up!” It’s not “giving up”… it’s REALITY.
People who develop CPTSD in adulthood (yes, it happens-- a lot) are most often victims of coercive control & systematic deception by people or organizations they trusted. Coming to terms w/ that kind of trauma involves processing grief, disbelief, & shame.
Cat sat next me & won’t leave They know don’t they
Sorting stuff absent a while am ok
Like a well oiled machine www.npr.org/2025/08/16/n...
Can hear spitfire overhead such a distinct & beautiful ASMR sound merlins make Did it mean hope to family hearing this in WW2? Still can trace linear hits across multiple roads here I know Mum & Dad watched axis planes overhead different towns & said people cheered when RAF intervened Past echos
Asymptomatic infections do not equate to mild outcomes Mild COVID symptoms does not equate to necessarily harmless outcomes Most who have long covid had seemingly milder symptoms and for some of the press to keep posting articles saying things like ‘ it’s getting milder’, ‘mystery of why covid is
Covid is a novel virus. It’s not, and never was, just a cold. We need to be humble and accept that five years is not enough time to know the true long term impacts. That’s why I wear an N95. It’s why I practice the Precautionary Principle. Any infection delayed or avoided is a win
There’s a quiet kind of ache some people carry. Not because we’re unloved, but because parts of us go unseen. We stay loyal. We stay kind. We bury the hunger. But it still hurts.
To tired to talk today
Exactly what we were saying earlier, we always seem to put ourselves above as ‘prime’  We’ll be taking credit for ‘coming out’ of the water onto land soon
Coffee please While I sit in a bath And a coconut ring #Luxury
Life as it should be
I gave up on mine, no support to help me sort it so no point no hope Too tired to fight Work impossible struggle
A crow, watching a mosquito, Jan Mankes.
Pop quiz: Who is the abandoner? a) the disabled person who doesn't want to join friends at an indoor restaurants because it will risk their health b) the person who walks away from disabled person because they won't eat in indoor restaurants
The UK's infrastructure is profoundly failing in this #ClimateEmergency www.bbc.com/news/article...
Yep the Birds beat us too it all by tens of million years plus an extinction level event I’d love to have heard Cretaceous Birdsong #Biodiversity
Or rather since the birds came first, we follow their lead. One more reminder that we are human animals, more alike than different to the rest of the #biodiversity on this planet we have so battered phys.org/news/2025-08...
More #GoodNews (no make that great) #GetGreensElected news Huge possibilities with all-out council elections next year
Autistic relationships don’t fail because we’re “bad at connection” or “have no feelings”. They fail when we have to perform to be accepted. Authenticity isn’t a luxury for us - it’s the only way a relationship can last.
Saturday is bath day I will have a bath I will be quiet I will dream I will
Worked all week Paced as knew I wanted to today But just can’t even with ADHD med too tired to start my brain drowned out epitome of chaos & noise I want calm be impossibly still block all thought occurring Oblivion calls beckoning from beyond I won’t step into that enticed darkness Not yet at least
It is not your fault you were conditioned to believe numbness & dissociation were necessary for survival. Your abusers & bullies planted that belief in you on purpose-- because a "you" who is purposefully & compassionately present does not tolerate or cover up their behavior.
Some people are kind Some people are not Be more kind Be less not I dare you
The Mr Weasels cat #CatsAreFamily #Caterday
Good morning & welcome to #Caturday Your kindness and compassion can brighten everyone's day: yours and the person you share them with. Share abundantly
"Hell is empty and all the devils are here." William Shakespeare
Fog is almost gone and warmer every minute.
Not only did federal goons show up to try and intimidate our governor, they did so on hallowed ground. Gov. Newsom was speaking at the Democracy Center at the Japanese American National Museum, which I helped found so we do not repeat the horrors and injustices of the past. Shameful.
EX AMBASSADOR TO RUSSIA MCFAUL: “Putin doesn't look at all of this stuff as a sign of strength. He looks at it as a sign of weakness. He had to do absolutely nothing to get this meeting. Putin has gained everything and given nothing in return.”
100%
This Please #StopOctopusFarming #Sentience
Octopus farming is cruel, unsustainable, & dangerous. #Spain has the chance to stop it before it starts. Tell Spanish lawmakers to support the national ban on octopus farms! #StopOctopusFarming #Cephalopods bit.ly/3HqpdCA
That’s probably possible :0 My interest as a palaeontologist was & is ‘time’, reading the past, timelines of life & you can’t do that without understanding ELE’e (extinction level events) Because of that I can be a bit gloomy at times lol  TY
Animals are so much more sophisticated - and have so much more fun - than we have given them credit for. We could learn from them about the importance of play www.bbc.co.uk/newsround/ar...
We're just starting to understand the #biodiversity we are fast trashing. "Cryoconite granules - frozen rainforests”. Each is a self-sustaining ecosystem, containing diverse bacteria, fungi, viruses, protists & even tiny animals like tardigrades & worms" www.theguardian.com/world/2025/a...
If I was a bird I would totally annoy all the other birds by saying “hey hey … hey … I’m a Dino-soar! … get it … get it”
Posting pictures I have taken of birds to stop my feed here just being depressing politics #birds #birdsofbluesky House Crow, Chennai, March 2016
You can’t “wellness” your way out of chronic illness and disability. People are desperate to believe that enough exercise, healthy food, raw milk & sunshine will make them bulletproof. Why? Ableism. They don’t want to face the fact that one day they will be disabled.
I’d really like to read that when it comes out, caveat if we’re still here and if you ever want to chat about it all to an oft ridiculed person, palaeontologist who masks, camouflages, picks worms off the pavement who believes life ‘will find a way’ again Id be happy to do that
Unfortunately, yes you’re right people don’t see/have lost connection, bigger picture, entirety of our ecosystem web but did especially in past before we/it all got ‘complicated’ we are taught people who ‘know’ are weird odd unrealistic ridiculed Irony ‘knowing’ & realisation physically hurts :(
I’m tired *need to create now I’m tired *feel not much time I’m tired *drawing then? I’m tired *writing story I’ve researched, planed & started then? I’m tired *short time being creative? I’m so tired *help me choose I’m so tired *feel compelled My head so tired *please Tired *sorry
Today my fridge magnets will mostly say ‘Hey Mr weasel man sing a meow for me’ #CatBuddy #Caterday
This Saturday, nationwide “Fight the Trump Takeover” protests will take place with 50 rallies across 20 states to oppose Republican-led redistricting efforts in Texas. “Fight the Trump Takeover” is coordinated by Texas for ALL,
Stunningly joy filled illustration :)
Please sign and share if you can. Ban Octopus Farming Now: Pass this Groundbreaking Bill actions.eko.org/a/ban-octopu...
The US is entering another COVID wave & vaccinations are at an all time low What’s worse, many people can’t even access boosters because of RFK Jr’s revised “recommendations” Don’t forget that layers work! A well fitted mask like an N95, air purifiers, CPC mouthwash and nasal sprays can all help!
If only we had discovered humility, our place as guardians shepherds of biodiversity & not arrogantly considered ourselves privileged, the ‘top of the evolutionary tree’ so all this belongs to us to do with what we will Arrogance & greed are toxins, terminators, beasts, a possession to cast out :(
What a mess we’ve made of the world
What a mess we have made of this #PoisonedPlanet, and #PublicHealth. "Research found connections among Pfas-related gene changes and biological pathways involved in leukemia, bladder, liver, thyroid and breast cancers, Alzheimer’s, lupus, asthma & tuberculosis" www.theguardian.com/environment/...
International embarrassment.
Yes Or even the next few minutes 😶
We will be observing the national two-minute silence at 12.00 today, Friday 15 August, as part of commemorations for the 80th anniversary of VJ Day. #VJDay #VJ80
I took this photo of a Hooded Crow in Istanbul back in February. Very tame in the parks. Amazing how delicately they can pick up small objects in their bills. Being ‘lumped’ back with Carrion Crow!! #birds #birdphotography #birdsseenin2025 #canonphotography
www.bbc.com/news/article... After a lifetime of paying taxes and working the elderly in the UK only get this as a small benefit. Our country has the lowest pensions in Europe. It’s not an amount anyone can have a good retirement on..What’s fair about that? Now they want to remove free travel.
You boy, go find and buy me a beautiful map please
Would a collective nown be A ‘fakeocracy’ of virtual MPs ?
Why aren’t Labour doing more to prevent COVID in children? @ashleydaltonmp.bsky.social www.mirror.co.uk/news/health/...
Icelandic ‘Laugardagur’ Old Norse ‘Laugardagr’
The Norse liked Saturday as it was bath day :)
‘Is there anybody out there’ PF
Sharing this for people working on posters, pitch decks, etc. for their projects — the visual hierarchy of information is crucial to all design! Just like in your script, control your reader's eye; be intentional with the font size, color, size, and placement. #Scriptsky
Anxiety: LOOK OUT!!! Me: OH SHIT FOR WHAT?! Anxiety: hard to say