Cis. She. MDD, ASD, ADD, AIH. Melbourne/Naarm/Narrm. Fiction reader, BlackMilk Galaxy collector, SW client. TezMillerOz on various platforms: WordPress, X, Facebook, Instagram, Threads, etc. Book notes on Goodreads, and sometimes Amazon UK.
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Brain's been having snap freakouts 1-3 minutes long. If I can distract myself enough, they don't turn into depression flare-ups. And I realised that lately on the days when I haven't had a flare-up - I've still had one of these breakouts. Which means EVERY DAY my brain has been battling itself.
Realised my personality is deteriorating from salty to bitter - from occasionally to almost full-time. I'm doing my best to fight this off, but I'm failing.
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Because I originally saw the warnings about Beau B*nnett on Instagram Stories last year (which have long since been deleted), no warning posts here when I Google his name. So now I'm gaslighting myself, because I can't find a written account. *headdesk*
18 days ago, someone commented that he did it to them, too: www.reddit.com/r/MelbourneA...
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Melbourne.
Also might not, if he's anything like me ๐
The front paws are called "slappers" for a reason ๐ (The back paws are called "thumpers", if @gonzo.bsky.social taught us cat anatomy correctly.)
Zackโs settled in at Casa Crits. They said he had been taking a bottle but all he wanted to do was BITE so I offered him some wet food and he went to town. He then went and used the litterbox like a big boy! Now weโre having some snuggle time watching Jeopardy. Heโll rejoin his brother eventually.
Also in your social media profile. And include if you're bi/pan, so potential clients know to follow you. (Because establishment websites often don't say, so women clients don't know.)
Her Franliness! ๐
To whomever asked whom are the best AMAB (cis and enby) SWers in Naarm: I've had positive experiences with Lucian Blake, Kai Silver, James Green, Leo Lockwood (no full-service; massage + kink only), Michael Lewis. I've got a few more requests pending. Recommendations and warnings are both welcome.
I don't know if other people are aware of allegations or not, or if they've heard them and don't believe them. I'm into AMABs (cis and enby) at the moment, and would love to know whom to avoid. Recommendations are one thing (I already know the best ones in Naarm), but I would like a "be wary" list.
It's bad enough that I had a relatively positive booking with someone in the past month...who just this week had allegations about his behaviour years ago. (Had the victim come forward a month earlier, I wouldn't have booked him. But I don't hold it against her; you come forward when you're ready.)
Early on in my clienting days, there was a warning going around on Instagram Stories about a particular male SWer. I don't remember what he did or to whom, but I remembered his name. Overnight and today I've seen him in social photos with other SWers. So now I don't know what to think.
Am I getting more cynical because of my age or because of life experience?
Just watched a video in which an SWer feels she does "healing". If that's how she feels, that's personal. But I don't think SW should be talked about as "healing", because any expectation of that wouldn't be fair to either SWer or client. Especially when the client is mentally FULL TEXT IN ALT.
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Move-in update: Fran is hiding against me under the covers, while Taro has chosen to camouflage himself amongst his fellow plushes
Does meddling mean you're pro-gossip? ๐
I've heard OF makes you wait until $200 to actually pay you. Hopefully waiting isn't as long for F-ly to pay!
Happy for you ๐
Well done, champion! ๐
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Happy for you ๐
"Who on your booking Wishlist if money was no object?" If money really was no object, I'd be booking 3-4 times a week, every week. Keep the serotonin and dopamine going. Have a full schedule so my brain doesn't get moody when I don't have something in concrete to look forward to. FULL TEXT IN ALT.
"Having a partner who understands and appreciates the complexity of her own sexuality has been invaluable for me on my journey, and has been a great support when navigating these questions about myself." And this is the problem with so many articles and discussions about FULL TEXT IN ALT.
"I think about how differently I show up in various social contexts. With certain groups of friends I'm more outgoing, with others more contemplative. My personality adaps and responds to the people around me." Now you're speaking my language! Though I really only kind of talk FULL TEXT IN ALT.
"Context matters enormously in how we experience sexuality, yet we rarely talk about this openly." Does that mean we're all kind of demi? Like, I'm bi/pan, but not interested in every individual person. I don't think I have enough variety of experience to fully comprehend this. FULL TEXT IN ALT.
"Consider how you view adult content." Well, I don't pay for anything, so whatever snippets turn up on social media. Sometimes I click to watch; other times I skip entirely. Any gender solo, I might watch. Femme/femme, I might watch. I suppose masc/masc would be fine, too, but FULL TEXT IN ALT.
Read this post by @axelmeridius.com.au at @evieplusaxel.com.au : www.evieplusaxel.com.au/insights/no-... It involves masculine and feminine energies, polarity and fluidity... I'm showing my ignorance here, but I don't see "energy" in terms of masc or femme. I think of it more as FULL TEXT IN ALT.
Taro baby photos, for health
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I know they're just venting, but I dislike when SWers share memes of stereotypes of potential clients not reading ads. I not only read the ads - I also notice discrepancy between ads (such as incall included on one profile, but not on another site), and contact the SWers in question to clarify.
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Feel free to send anonymous questions, comments, suggestions, and confessions to ngl.link/tezmilleroz I may answer on Bsky, or on Instagram Stories (TezMillerOz), so I recommend checking in on both my platforms.
To whomover asked my NGL if I've booked Michael Lewis: Yes, and I literally just posted a testimonial/review to Scarlet Blue. Excellent timing, your question!
Tried to think of my "body count". But which specific acts contribute as a "body"?
Or kraving.kali - I forget the name exactly.
To whomever asked my NGL who declined my booking request because I said I have perioral dermatitis? N*ck Br*ns*n. I don't hold it against him, though, because I stand by my word that anyone is allowed to deny a book request from me.
Priya with Dean Robinson's NALA'S WORLD. #BookSky #CatSky #DeanRobinson #NalasWorld #Books #Cats #Book #Cat #AmReading
There's someone I follow on Instagram who always posts Stories about human design: kravingkali (if you're not following already).
If there's one thing I wish I'd outgrown since being a teenager, it's FOMO. But it was actually KOMO. I didn't *fear* I was missing out. I *knew* I was missing out. That was the problem. If I didn't know I was missing out, I couldn't care. But when you *know* you're missing out, that's the issue.
I got rejected 2050 times yesterday and I'm totally cool with that. Read about my journey to fixing the damage the 90s had on my psyche โค๏ธ Emberorgana.com/bodyconfidence
Makes up for the times he's stared at you while you sleep ๐
And I've been reading blog posts and Instagram Stories by SWers talking about client stigma, and the type of clients SWers see... But I don't see a joint platform of SWers and clients talking TOGETHER in public, to humanise and individualise both at the same time. Seems like a missed opportunity.
Whisper networks only protect those within the networks. If those speaking out only do it privately? Then those outside of the whisper networks are left vulnerable. It made me think about listing directories, and if they still publish profiles of people who may have been abusive.
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Manifesting: I'd love to be part of a project where SWers and clients come together. Where both are interviewed, or lecture, or discuss. Where both are photographed, together even. Where both are treated equally. Acknowledged, accepted, respected, appreciated. No about us without us. โ
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Damn, rejected because of my perioral dermatitis, even though I explained it isn't viral or infectious. *shrugs* Everyone has their boundaries.
The Morning Monty disapproves. In general.
Highlight of my career writing a couple of these for the icon herself www.instagram.com/reel/DOdwrqz...
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Looks like caramel! #AmazingRaceAU
Please don't do the accent in front of the locals. #AmazingRaceAU
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Time to vote! @swcrawards.bsky.social pollunit.com/en/polls/je8... More suggestions for Companion category: @cherryqueengigi.bsky.social, @melinahviking.bsky.social, @lenadeluca.bsky.social, @loumoo-au.bsky.social, @bbwbridget.bsky.social, @sashalorenmiamour.bsky.social, @tashhamilton.bsky.social
Time to vote! @swcrawards.bsky.social pollunit.com/en/polls/je8... My suggestions for the Companion category: @leiani-lee.bsky.social, @evieelysian.com.au, @missandry-x.bsky.social, @lucydelamour.bsky.social, @cecebarkerx.bsky.social, @thelexleigh.bsky.social, @cwitchprincess.bsky.social,
Time to vote! @swcrawards.bsky.social pollunit.com/en/polls/ej-... My suggestions for the Fan Favourite category: @leolockwood.bsky.social, @leiani-lee.bsky.social, @melinahviking.bsky.social, @thelexleigh.bsky.social, Skyler Belair
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Tex: No matter how rough your day, you can trust yourself
I would also fake not knowing English to avoid small talk ๐ #AmazingRaceAU
I bloody love tiramisu - excellent choice! ๐
How do I know if my pants are necropants? ๐
Aw, yeah, bread! ๐๐ฅ #AmazingRaceAU
I should mention: The content creator I booked I knew was in-person beforehand because I found them via a listing directory - and then realised their Twitter was mostly collabs. The dominatrix I booked wasn't one of the Twitter findommes. So maybe I didn't address my biases FULL TEXT IN ALT.
For the record, both addressing-my-biases bookings went great. Content creators are just fine with civs! Dominatrices are friendly! Or at least the content creator and dominatrix I booked both did well with me. I've learned and am better off for the experiences. If people want to FULL TEXT IN ALT.
Yep - thankfully the symptoms ended, and haven't reappeared ๐
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If no oneโs said this to you today, let me. I love you, youโre beautiful, you are and always will be enough. You are worthy of everything you desire. I hope this makes you smile, my loves ๐ค
Jewel - "Daddy"
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Guess who finally started using the nice cat tree M. bought for him but only when I pick him up and gently deposit him in the top basket, like a butler
TMI Having symptoms of something. Researched: Could be UTI (which I've never had before). Could also be Secondary IgA Nephropathy (never heard of this before), which can be caused by AutoImmune Hepatitis (which I have). Don't know if what's coming out of me is blood, or some other pink/red thing.
Happy anniversary ๐
Wishing you all the best in your endeavours!
Wishing your foot all the best!
"Fav SW?" And sully their reputations by publicly associating them with me? I can't do that to them without their consent. If they publicly associate themselves with me first, then I'll name names. Until then, just presume that I have excellent taste - because I do.
It probably makes me a hypocrite that I claim to want to humanise being a client, yet I don't want to meet other clients. I'll admit to it. All the marketing in the biz, the way providers word their social media posts...it's all very clear that most clients/potentials are men. ALT TEXT IN FULL.
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SW client stereotype: Doesn't read the ad. SW client me: Reads the ad. Notes the location says Melbourne, but later the ad mentions Sydney. Informs the SWer. SWer corrects it ASAP. I'm a proud reader of SWer ads. Hopefully I'm breaking negative stereotypes about clients. I damn FULL TEXT IN ALT.
I am very much in favour of the pre-dinner nap!
Hey, I left substack and moved to ghost. Find me here! www.agentsandbooks.com/oh-hello/
Did not know this Feed existed until now - thanks for the heads up!
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Welcome back for November! ๐
SW client stereotype: Doesn't read the ad. SW client me: Reads the ad. Notes that the location says Melbourne, but later the ad mentions Sydney. Informs the SWer. SWer corrects it ASAP. I'm a proud SW client and reader of SWer ads. Your venting better not be about me ๐
Do you have an NGL or anything available for people to ask anonymous questions?
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Smol Paul's hospital results haven't given us any answers so in the meantime, I've arranged for Fraser Vet Physiotherapy to come and give him some sessions. Look how happy he is with his free massage, the grumpy sod ๐
The Morning Monty is despondent re: the shift in seasons and the recent/imminent dearth of sunbeams.
Had a depression flare-up during a booking again today. This time thankfully near the end. Trying to figure out a catalyst. Think I'm failing to connect. This shyness is debilitating. And it shouldn't be. My regular, my favourite. Why is it easier to meet people for the first time? I can't fix this.
I will leave a glittery trail of destruction over the city today. You're welcome, Naarm ๐ BlackMilk Diamond Waves Sequin Column Midaxi Skirt. #Selfie @blackmilkclothing.bsky.social #BlackMilkClothing #BlackMilk #SharkieStyle #DiamondWaves #LightBlue #Skirt #Clothing #Clothes #Fashion #Apparel
how on earth am i meant to get anything done when hercule purrot is looking at me like this
