This feed is my mental health journal, working on my shit: cPTSD, BPD, CSA, TBI, Bipolar2-ultradian, CPP, Disabled veteran, USCG retired, GNU/Linux, XFCE4, Handy with tools & PC's ( they / them / slave / it ) Since 13 Aug 2023 Seattle
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That is a good idea. Ultimately, all my spice refill containers will be in the upper shelf, and they are very light
That looks so tasty. Nice work!
I had CBT group and DBT group, but i was there for the tools. The tools save me, the groups were forgettable. Everyone's mileage varies for certain
Oof!
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Eeks, thank you 🐾💚
I can make some soup here 🐾💚
I can see it. Getting there. Too much to do. I just need to focus right now on making this little tin home a home that entices my joy and peace
Lots. In its own time
Wookie hugs your friend from Seattle! That is wonderful news 🐾💚 I will find mine a good home for certain
You can buy the metal for the side of the trailer (used, even), then some studs, then insulation, then the interior wall (usually 1/8-inch plywood). I don't entirely trust anything about pop-outs, so I drew up a plan for a hang-out area without the pop-out
I like Bloosky, this is my journal and I'm sticking to it 🐾💚 I can't keep up with more than one thing online, not even DM's here. I can journal here and this format works insanely well for me considering my brains have been literally bashed in a few times. I'm a long-time writer since 1974
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Loyal and friendly coffee drinker seeks Delta quadrant frenz
(I'm psyched and hopeful) 🐾💚😜
Fingers are crossed! Thank you
Thank you. It is ok... I'm tired and need a break. But it's gonna be ok 🐾💚
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SEE!!!
Tarkan, 'Bu Gece'
I took a pic of my green lighted trailer in the evening light and it's not unlike a Borg cube, green light coming from every window
I don't know what everyone is getting on about, I take showers, dambits. Mostly
It is the very same, and it smells *awesomes* dambits
::cough,cough:: It smells almost perfect right now... <--DotDotDot
The bottom shelf (behind the TV mount atrocity) is going to be my Hot Shelf (for charging everything) Where is my snacks shelf gonna be...
So far, nothing feels off about this (trailer) space and me living in it. Lots of new things, different things, and more things in more ways that I want them My evening greenlight game is fucking out of control. My batteries can die and I'll have heat and music and sparkly lights
What I've been doing is a day's business in my Grimm trailer and grabbing everything I need for that thing/those things and finding homes for them in the trailer. So, first the things that I do throughout a week Right now I'm in full green light mode, doing design stuff, hanging with kita & tunes
I don't even know what i look like in a vid. It's so hard to piece my words together. I only see where i struggled. Fucking braims 🐾💚😜💪
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I understand
Thank you, Ree 🐾💚
Big truth, fluorescent mayonnaise man gets all sorts of considerations and there's so much privilege beyond this. My father was a (bad) cop, i did law enforcement in the USCG And all of that vaporizes when they call up my record. VA and military stuff shows up. A self-management posterchild
I have way too much experience with this. Something about me, cops get a look at me and can't spit, then I'm trying to manage their self-talk, and that sounds like abusive codependency
I have way too much experience with this. Something about me, cops get a look at me and can't spit, then I'm trying to manage their self-talk, and that sounds like abusive codependency
I've crunched the numbers. I misfigured I need 400 Watts of solar for my setup Crap
I have two, small alpine tree LED (fake neon) trees that i bought this trailer for Lore I love these little fukrs. When both of them have a home i will be good
Ooh, take 1, take 2, [Backspace worked]. I'm not where i thought i was. Wheee ...
If I'm making videos it's a big upswing, but there is all this self destruction and conflagration action figure boolsheet. Mixed-state is Home I'm gonna make a stupid video, some more
Thank you, A.G. 🐾💚
And gods only know what's in my videos 😂
::rawr::
There is a TV mounted on that wall, and kitchen cabinets on the other side
Never worry about that, i can ask fifty questions, it's all good I wonder if they didn't make that wall thicker because sex in the bedroom 🐾😜
Neighbors brought me an un-dated bottle Sutter Home Sauvignon blanc as a home warming gift Trailer warming...this is what that wine was made for. This Hells yeah
My general police confrontation rule is that if they draw anything i assume the Federal Position immediately and i keep my mouth shut
Twenty years ago this trailer project would have been done in a week. I honor my loss without investing in it everytime it comes up Change and loss are difficult, and the grieving process does what it does. It's ok to be sad when you're sad
I need to choose a tiny fridge and go with it, or gather a range based on a few fridge choices... For planning purposes. I'm moving the fridge location and have to build the enclosure for it
It says it has a way to be secured to the floor. If not i know a really good construction adhesive and i have mad gluing skills 🐾😂 They are made to just sit on the floor
One of the things that has been happening is something that my husbear was really good at; anchoring me in time I'm not anchored in time presently. Sleep helps a little, routines help a lot. I am working on routines and it's not been working out. When I'm not taking care of someone this will change
My phone knows it's in trouble and then it ignores my damned thumb. Fucking phomnes
Yarrr 🐾
Going over symptoms and this isn't grieving, dysthymia, down swings...this is that fatigue/exhaustion thing and i need to pay attention I'll do little things when i hang out in the trailer at night, catch up on finances, gonna do a joy thing, rest, rest, rest Burnout really never got addressed...
Living things, little things, a way to use my cork board or my whiteboard until i get the bunk area fixed up I made a video and I'm sorry
I just found out about them today, also 🐾😂
Not doing heavy work again today The tools i need to do stuff in this trailer project all go on the upper shelf and when I'm all done they will go into a tool bag for trailer Right now the bottom shelf is my tunes and tablet and battery bank Found a 12 VDC wire and I'm going to add a USB outlet
I'll totally share every sparkle
I ordered 3 more 6-foot strings. Muahaha...
My reading is sketchy, just noticed you said composting. 🐾😜 I'll be making an elevated mounting platform for the toilet with an eye for spacing adjustment
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That wall is 3.5; inches thick, of all things, thicker than the bathroom walls. The corner mouldings make it 4" across I had them remove the flush toilet and cover the hole, I'll be using a composting toilet (should be here in a week)
Trying to replace the clock that just broke and i realize a dementia clock is prolly a good idea, but they don't display relative humidity
Yurts are cool, BTW 🐾💚
Just bought $70000 worth of hooks...i have the hooks
Such a surprise pocket ouch firemouse
(When exclamation marks are not in agreement with my moods it comes off to me as fake on re-reads and I cringe)
I'm working out ways to use the Command stickies for some other things The previous owners of this trailer used them and the hooks were impressive in their sticky
Thank you, Malky. It's gonna get better, too!
I told Gamera that it was the new Monster Island and Gamera claimed it for itself 🐾💚💪
Uh, yes. Yes.
She really liked the full-screen door (I'm gonna have to add a grate to the bottom). There were bunnies and raccoons an a possum mom and her youngsters from this year, and it was the best Husky TV she's ever experienced 🐾💚🐾
I have a flashlight fixation; there's always a flashlight in my pocket. I used lithium batteries Twice in the last 8-years I have had those 18650 lithium batteries go into thermal meltdown in my fumckin pocket I decided no more lithium cells in my portable pocket world Reasons I use NiMH Eneloops
Metaphors save me, my brain thinks in those sorts of pictures
Grippy/no slip matting...
(also, i use these batteries because they specifically do not use lithium)
Ok, that meeting went better than i thought it could I now have qualified help with all of my stuff, with rules to prevent upswing $henanigan$
(I use Eneloop AA rechargeables with those 3-6 footer sparkly lights)
4hrs sleep
That place where your halving of pills in the neck of the bottle finally results in grabbing halved-pills reliable, except you need a whole pill for tonight Gonna calm my titties and see what happens
Thank you, Birdie. All of that, thank you. 🐾💚💪
ok, so I guess I got some triggers, and I guess we're working on them, and I guess some things need addressing and work, and I guess everything is gonna be ok, even if I cut some folks off and make choices based on what I can do, for now... fuk Everything is fine
I wove my request for changes into the dialog for the sale, that's a thing, and it got written down and signed, also a thing
[Backspace] still works
Now I understand, though. He's part of a group of folks who go camer-van camping together, each one has a niche. One has a kitchen, one has a hangout, one has endless power and a big fridge. It's ceaselessly social and not I would do well with 400Watts of solar and will tuck that away
If you don't, you only feel worse after the cry.
The salesperson said, "this trailer was sold as-is" And I reminded her that we have a fucking contract (Last week's phucqueries)
For almost 30yrs 🐾💚
Sometimes crying requires that you make a noise Make the fucking noise
When I am done there will never have been a camper trailer with so many sparkle lights. Laugh, but fuck you (ok, you who know, not fuck you at all)
I love that plucky overlord doggie, so much cutes
WHY CANNOT THE HARDWARE STORE BE OPEN AT 2324, THIS IS AN AMERICAN BIRTHRIGHT!!!!!!111!!!!!! No patience is a symptom
It is still a place that she expects to LEAVE Leaving the screen door open let her smell and hear new things, good distractions, this was round 2
to my sister... " I lit my candle for the dead in the trailer tonight, and now that is it's new home. This is so fucking hard I'm ok, just feeling those fucking feels and shit Anyhoo, when you see this, GOOD FUCKING MORNING you AWESOME SISTER!!! "
This is clawing it's way toward the rocket launcher and I've employed a beer for the dead, this is twofold
Gods, I have to get all of this done and ready and start back in on the house...January is 3-days away...