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IamChrisEdward @iamchrisedward.bsky.social

I just took an online version of that test & I got an 8/10. No one talked about depression or mental illness, so I answered that one "no." No one was ever arrested. In middle school I broke down in front of a councilor and they turned my dad in and all it did was make things worse for me.

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IamChrisEdward @iamchrisedward.bsky.social

Since then I have been very weary of "help" because the beatings just got worse, especially when he was in anger management classes. It's like he took all his angst from the class out on me. Then came the guilt from his side of the family! Who were also raised with an abusive father.

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IamChrisEdward @iamchrisedward.bsky.social

Then came the "tests" where his abuse would be brought up (usually by his sister) & he would blatantly say "I am no longer abusive, I use my words now", then he would look at me, grit his teeth & say "isn't that right?" I would have to say "yes" or else the beating once we got home would be worse.

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IamChrisEdward @iamchrisedward.bsky.social

He used to beat me as a deterrent before events, so I would act "proper", despite me never having acted out or having done anything to embarrass him in the past. There was no winning with him. The wind would change and so would his mood. Then 2mins later he would wonder why we were all upset.

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