Hello. I am sorry you are hurting. I don't know what you need, but I hope you find it.

Being alive increasingly feels like I'm trying to keep a higher lifeform prisoner in my flesh simply because I don't know if it will survive outside its confines, while the world around its prison crumbles away

My heart is thrashing around in my chest and everything in my world both inside and out is screaming to let it free but god won't tell me what comes next so I'm too afraid to take the plunge and I just want to be happy and I know that that will never happen in this life

I was born wrong in a dying world and every choice I've ever made has hurt me, how else am I supposed to look at this other than my soul specifically wanted to know what being the protagonist of a tragedy felt like