Can one be disconsolate all the time? I don't know. I do think you have to be able to see value in yourself for that value to be seen by others. Think you're unworthy and that's how you may present yourself to the world. "Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life."
I dunno bbz Iām currently applying for Access to Work to get a support worker- I have autism and adhd
I suppose what I'm saying is our happiness ultimately doesn't rest with someone else. Look to someone else to make you happy and there will probably be two unhappy people. We are shaped by our thoughts, we become what we think.
I know bbz I probably need medication to stop mine tho. And I have exceptionally high masking autism so I can pretend super well to be a real person and then people think I can connect with them but I have a weird thing with touch that makes me jump out of my skin or act distant
"Real person"? Fuck outta here with that normie-pandering bullshit. You're real as fuck in many senses of the word! Don't diminish yourself, you've got a lot to offer. You just need to find the right weirdo. I know that's easier said than done but I think you will.
Nothing wrong with medication though if you find the ones that work for you, I should add
Thanks both š¤š¤š¤