Yeah. It's really fucking rough to adjust to, and it's so hard to feel like you're actually getting anywhere because of the dissociation. Just try to be kind to yourself, and take it as slow as you can 💙 I also strongly recommend a dissociation-informed therapist: it makes a huge difference 💙

i’m barely able to find a trans informed therapist where I live (in Russia) but i’ll keep it in mind for future, thanks

Oof, that's rough. You could check the ISSTD website: it has a global search tool for therapists that have their qualification. There might not be anyone, but you never know! Good luck, regardless ❤️‍🩹