CW: MH - Pet Death. - I feel you, May, we lost four cats this way, one day they were with us, the next never seen again. No body to bury, no finality, no closure, just a hope that as the days, then weeks go past slowly fades away. All you can do is hope that whatever happened (cont)
was either quick or happy. I'd say don't beat yourself up, but it's natural, you're going to question yourself, going to ask why. But he came to you on his own terms, and now it's possible that he's left you the same way. Cats are independently minded little buggers after all. S'why we love them.
Holly, she was a bit like that, a tabby feral who came to us just before Christmas around 1992. We put food out for her, and it became clear she was pregnant. She eventually came into the house, had her kittens, got spayed, stayed with us for over three years and then one day just left again.
