For a long time, I tried desperately to matter, which made me super self-conscious about everything, be it physical, personality, being popular, etc. But, at some point, I finally learned to accept myself & stopped caring if I mattered to everyone, what others thought of me, etc.
“Desperately trying to matter” is probably a fair tag line to my entire life
I can, in earnest, say that you matter for many reasons. The hardest part of it is truly believing you do.
Now, I don't let society shame me for who I am. I know I matter and don't need others to validate it.