I feel your pain.The same thing happened to me several years ago. We were best from the age of six. 50 years on, she knew me better than I knew myself. A part of you is now gone, and that hurts. A lot. But with time you will learn how to continue with that part of you gone. I am sorry for your loss.
That was Jon. We were utterly inseparable. He was the Laurel to my Hardy, the Schuster to my Wayne, my other Smother’s brother. I think we argued maybe twice ever in almost 50 years. All our interests and likes perfectly aligned. His bday even 5 days before mine. We had a comic together.
I survived the nightmare that was bullying in school literally because of him and his unbreakable friendship. I never did sleepovers except with him. His house was my second home.
I feel…. numb. Like- nothing. Just numbness. Almost catatonic.
I can’t afford to send flowers. I can’t afford a trip back to NB to be with his dad. I can’t even take a day off work for his death without a “unauthorized absence” because he’s “just a friend” so I have 12 hours to get my s*it together and carry on like it never happened.
Can you take any sick time? This would be a legitimate use given the extent of your grief.
No. Even that would be an unexcused absence. I’d lose my job or at least the income.
This is the same company that gave me a written warning because I went for a biopsy on a thyroid nodule.
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Yes. “We sympathize with…blah blah… but you’re on a written warning” Still waiting for the results of that biopsy. But that’s my employer.
I mean we have to email them if we go to poop or change a tampon not on our break or unpaid lunch. Even if it’s 1 minute- and we get 5. And they’re unpaid minutes.
Ooof. So sorry.
Flub it ? call him a step sibling perhaps? Sorry for your loss and shock, sending hugs and positive energy xo
Yes. That is normal right now. Give yourself some grace, and the space to grieve. It will get better. I promise!
So sorry... Sounds like they were an awesome person.
Oh wow. That is a special and unique friendship. How lucky you were to have him in your life for 50 years!