most impoverished, worst off, of the hoi polloi. All the grant money has dried up, so you can't find an Obamaphone anywhere now. And after a decade of fascist violent rhetoric, the whites who run the repugnicunt flyover fiefdoms have made it illegal just to be homeless,🎵"& the riot squads, they're
restless, they need somewhere to go, as lady & I look out tonight on, Desolation Row" We walked a different way today w our maladies & pain, as we used to do in the City, when we'd always try to go a different way somewhere & back, when we were out & about, & loved life. So many gorgeous old houses
in downtown Lexington. We came upon the Lexington Public Library from the north, recalling when it was built & 1st opened w its facets of pink granite panels. It was poorly scaled & badly detailed, but it was the days of PoMo, so everything was back then when Michael Graves & Bob Stern's "caryakids"
were all the rage. So it seems in the world today, the only way to find housing if your family abandons you & they are a pair of untreated ACOAs & OCDs & covert narcissists, who always make you the scapegoat & enemy, is to check yourself into a 28-Day Rehab & then go to some faith-based horseshit
Sober Living kind of arrangement. I keep screaming at the top of my lungs, using my inside voice, that drugs & alcohol ain't my problem, my body, my mind, & trauma by the violent white state terrorists of Fremont County in white supremacist Colorado are, but all they wanna do is throw allopathic
drugs at you, and call it "medicine" & practicing it poorly, but they & Medicaid always pay, so they keep doing the same shit they've always done per the CPT Codes that work best, & there are no resources for people who just need a stable environment, & less interaction with the dangerous & chaotic
outside, after the cop trauma & the Complex PTSD, & the "split selves", & the anxiety disorder, & the PTSD w Somatic Response, started coming out after we left NYC in December of '17, & then did our ~220 Medicaid therapy sessions w Tricia, & for lack of an income, since the niggardly whites who run
SSDI have denied me twice in 5+ years, this last time, after 28 months of waiting, & Mr. Fernando n the Federal Benefits Unit in Manila having lost my paperwork for 8 months & threatening to close my case. It's hard out here for pimp. So, yeah, listening to the ignorance & stupid opinions of the
unwashed blathering masses at the LRM, today we heard a guy say that he was going to blow up Voices of Hope, because they had 20 people inside it sitting in cubicles, sucking at the teat of gubbermint & playing games on their phones. He thinks that all of it should be burned down & started over,
kinda like the myopic regressive bigot John on the bought & paid for Leonard Leo Six Koch whores of SCOTUS. The rehabs, community health centers, sober living houses, & free phones, are already starting to close, here & now, BE HERE NOW, said Richard Alpert before he learned yoga, there was already
such a dearth of help in the bloody Kaintuck, & now it's ever so quickly drying up to a trickle. So we lost our phone the other night when we slept on the sidewalk someplace downtown until around 3:00 a.m. & then shlepped back to the Hopelessness Center and fell down onto the floor on their dirty