I feel like everyone believes that if I'm smiling, being kind to others or even joking around, I'm not hurt and my pain is just fake. I don't want my suffering to be a bother to other people, I can't cry and crash out under everyone's posts just because I'm depressed or angry.
what does everyone know about my emotions? How can you say that you know how I feel just because you see me joke around with my oomfs? Do you think I'm such a fake person? Do you think I like to see others suffer and do what I do for fun? If that's your opinion of me, then you know nothing about me.
my smile might be fake at times, at least online, but my kindness has never been. I've never been kind to someone with ulterior motives or just to look nice. NEVER IN MY WHOLE LIFE. If you hate me, just block me. It hurts to find out that someone who you considered your friend actually hates you.
it happened not too long ago, and I don't want to experience it again. This is just a general post, I'm writing it because I'm paranoid and scared of being seen as fake and heartless. Please, refrain from making hateful assumptions about me. I don't need to be hated more than I already am.