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@computeruser338217.bsky.social

a woman with many skills and abilities

created July 9, 2025

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Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

t-pain cover album is alright but that war pigs cover is crazy. i wish more rappers tried rock/metal coz i imagine many of them could make a better rock/metal album than a lot of contemporary acts.

18/8/2025, 12:36:50 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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the opposite side of this that the hardcore anti-censorship crowd doesn't want to acknowledge is that it's effectively saying that yes, there's no difference between a queer person and a predator if both are given the same protections.

18/8/2025, 12:28:06 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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because it lets them use an awful solution to drive things to their own benefits.

18/8/2025, 12:22:04 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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it's very comparable to drug enforcement in many places across the world in that way. it's a real problem and to claim it isn't is just disagreeing with science on a fundamental level, buuuut also none of the people in charge actually want to deal with the problem. if anything, they like the problem

18/8/2025, 12:21:42 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i understand the feeling and i don't think you're inherently evil for using the site, obviously, but i do think it's an example of the anti-censorship bend often including the most very wrong people for arguably right reasons.

18/8/2025, 12:21:10 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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site (the fanfic one, not tumblr) were generally okay people, but too many of them would stick their neck out for the really bad cases out of fear that anyone who came for the people who wrote shit about real-life child actors would also come for the normie people who liked dr who a lot.

18/8/2025, 12:19:50 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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it's not, but at the top level of the organization they promote it too much for it to be overlooked ESPECIALLY given how much they censored palestine-related topics on the site. i spent an assload of time on tumblr as a kid (not great in hindsight) and i remember a lot of the people who used the-

18/8/2025, 12:18:29 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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obviously us making fun of the A-0-3 crowd for making CSAM literature of real-life children is what spurns on crackdowns on queer people. surely there's no other condition causing this. you just have to be nice to @MadamePedophile or else we'll all die.

18/8/2025, 12:10:58 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i can't help but find it charming, but granted i've always gravitated towards the "ugly" pets. a family friend had a really weird looking dog and everyone thought he looked ugly but i loved him as a kid.

18/8/2025, 12:08:35 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

had pickled his brain at that point and was divorcing himself from reality. a lot of translations do not pick up the amount of sheer grammatical incoherence or the lack of any reasonable flow to the writing in order to seem more "objective" but in reality it's doing a disservice to what it really is

18/8/2025, 12:00:10 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

hell, piggybacking off of the mention of Mein Kampf, i think a lot of the anti-censorship arguments end up being pro-censorship in a way because they do a lot to portray more "normal" ideas and fringe ideas on the same bandwith. Mein Kampf is infamously a VERY poorly written book, given that Hitler-

17/8/2025, 11:58:50 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

hey. hey. hey. hey. jokes are only funny when they don't apply to me.

17/8/2025, 11:44:35 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i do enjoy this one, thanks. keep up the good work :)

17/8/2025, 11:43:42 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

"You cannot judge someone based on the art they make. Just because something makes you uncomfortable doesn't mean it's bad. If you find something distasteful, that's a you problem." i'd agree, but can you give me an example of what you mean first? coz y'know, that's a lil vague.

17/8/2025, 11:42:34 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

in addition to shitty boomer facebook politics, now my discover feed is showing me "anti-censorship" posts about "uncomfortable art" that are revealed to be the OP dogwhistling about drawn CSAM and the like. beautiful website.

17/8/2025, 11:31:11 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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my running theory is that a lot of this mindset is downstream from the often-parroted notion that art is supposed to be hard or unfun and that the artist is one who is suffering or tortured. surely if that's true, then there must be some disposition towards art biologically (following this logic).

17/8/2025, 11:07:22 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i think a ton of the discourse around this topic is downstream of the idea that quality is god in art and that artists always suffer.

17/8/2025, 11:03:39 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

the thing that bugs me about this is the sort of grand obsession we have with objective quality. most of my art is very amateurish, but that doesn't make it bad. it's fun to just make things even if they're not MOMA material. everyone needs to learn how to draw/write like a kid again.

17/8/2025, 10:59:29 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

might make an art account and start posting art in public. scary thought!

17/8/2025, 4:24:40 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

i've noticed that the trend of making up a disabled person to justify anger at something has gotten so strong that people are starting to make up situations where they'd have to make up a disabled person. starting to think righteous anger is still just anger at the end of the day!

17/8/2025, 4:17:45 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i'll bite: was that not always the case? i'm younger than the average on this site (not saying much tho lol) but i remember distinctly being told my entire life that the internet should be treated with the level of trust that you'd give to a deadbeat uncle.

16/8/2025, 5:17:26 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

"new Juicy J jazz album is really good jazz with minimal, but very good rap" is a sentence you make up for a punchline, not something real, but somehow

16/8/2025, 4:10:39 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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is the dumbest shit ever. we should be engaging in self-reflection and trying to escape society's demons as transgender people because it makes us healthier, not because it'll make us more palatable to a theoretical "kind master" or whatever.

15/8/2025, 4:39:46 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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it's a lot better when you frame it as an inwards manner, as in that you need to be more rational psychologically or more open to emotional regulatory thought because as a minority you will face more adversity. having it be "well you need to be the perfect little woman so the mean people are nice"

15/8/2025, 4:38:41 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i hate to sound like a centrist but i do think there's reason to the idea that sometimes we as minority groups need to behave better than the mean, but i hate that it's always presented as "we need to be nice to master or else he'll keep beating us" like this.

15/8/2025, 4:37:06 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

that sort of treatment of social media as the thunderdome where you go and slaughter others in righteous combat stems from this for a lot of "good leftists" as you see by the strain of person who dedicates their life to attack, attack, and attack again and constantly find new outrage to attack.

15/8/2025, 4:28:12 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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my running theory is that it's the "reactionary leftist" strain cultivated by gamergate that never found a home or a proper burial and now just targets things indiscriminately. at this point i don't think it's really that people care about helping minorities, they just want to see blood shed.

15/8/2025, 4:23:46 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

has taylor swift had an album that wasn't too big to fail in the last 5 years?

12/8/2025, 2:48:26 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

Erm... I'm not sure how you could be LAUGHING when ORANGE HITLER is in the White House...

12/8/2025, 2:32:57 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i noticed this before AI got jammed into a lot of word processors (i've personally switched to libreoffice for most non-school stuff largely coz i prefer the customization) and i think it's just a "we give up" at this point. i kind of prefer it to spellcheck questioning any non-anglo name.

11/8/2025, 11:51:34 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

wish there was a way to interact with people on this site and ingratiate myself with others outside of "reply so freaking good." i guess i could keep posting about the music i like until people bite.

11/8/2025, 11:37:37 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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me and my friends have just been saying this is the "power of the narrative" when something convenient is turned into a pinata. it's not perfect but it fits the way this stuff is used, as opinions like these largely exist because they generate a simple story. "obviously there's one big bad guy"

11/8/2025, 11:24:37 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

this site is "awesome" in the sense that it makes my generalized anxiety disorder and associated spread of neuroses seem rational and calm sometimes. it's not a good ego boost but it is an ego boost and i'll take those where i can get them.

11/8/2025, 11:18:14 PM | 3 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

come on dude

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10/8/2025, 4:38:19 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i had a dream recently where i was playing a bonus level in a video game and they added a rat with a gun and the night before that i had a dream that my house exploded.

10/8/2025, 3:39:23 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

man i wish more artists drew bigger bodies in a way that wasn't clearly driven by libido. you really only see fat guys from bara art and fat girls from fetish stuff and it's a shame coz people who aren't heroin chic exist in real life! i'm not even that fat and i never see my body type drawn.

10/8/2025, 3:32:35 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i get the precedent before being a long string of "they can't win" into them winning, but the type of stuff being pulled now isn't the kind of thing you can endlessly scale forever.

10/8/2025, 12:36:01 AM | 6 1 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

yeah, a lot of my friends have been passively freaking out about the state of the world and wondering how i remain at all optimistic and besides my maxim of "don't pick at scabs, get other hobbies", the stuff mentioned in this thread has been effectively how i've been thinking.

10/8/2025, 12:35:08 AM | 5 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

also it means you motherfreakers keep listening to the same dull-ass nu-dad rock. i'm going to break into your house and put on Little Simz and make you feel unsafe.

10/8/2025, 12:06:11 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

this site is insufferably gen x/old millennial sometimes. no hate to you guys but good grief it's crazy to see the same old nostalgia cycle and lamentation for the "ruined future generations" happening despite the railing against them 10 years ago.

10/8/2025, 12:03:23 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

there's obviously situations where it's pretty tawdry but usually those are cases of people arguing for luxury goods to be drastically cheaper (hello video game pricing discourse). i don't think you can argue that you're ever too rich to call for more shelter.

9/8/2025, 11:47:44 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

Deltron 3030 may be the only good piece of cyberpunk media.

9/8/2025, 6:39:16 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

yeah like all of the more effeminate/GNC men i know get all of the squeeze and none of the juice. at "best" you get a lot more desire in relationships than before but usually those are just super fetishy and unhealthy for all involved.

9/8/2025, 6:02:58 PM | 3 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i'm an artist who draws for fun and never wants to be seriously paid for it so my opinion is ultimately meaningless but i think every time someone says AI means art is gonna die or whatever it kind of just betrays their that their view of art is just "i get to see a pretty picture"

9/8/2025, 6:01:36 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i'm of two minds here coz i think this is very plausible but also i do think that gender exploration is currently coded as a feminine thing and thus looked down upon *very* heavily. it might take a little while before we get a significant enough counterculture of AMAB people who are done with this.

9/8/2025, 5:37:19 PM | 13 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

(image of that boomer guy grilling) I Just Want To Draw, For God's Sake!

9/8/2025, 5:29:51 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i'm sick of LLMs and AI and all that too and i'm tired of how much they crib our shit and how often i hear them brought up "offline" by friends and family, but this airing of the grievances we keep doing isn't helping us at all.

9/8/2025, 5:27:21 PM | 4 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i know you mean it about compsci but i feel this post so much as an artist. i *adore* talking about art and picking the brains of my fellow artists and just talking about the joy of making things, but it feels like almost weekly we have to dedicate ourselves to AI-bashing in a way that does nothing.

9/8/2025, 5:26:21 PM | 5 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

this is a glimpse into a subculture within a subculture, but i do think sometimes (as a trans woman) that trans women can get in their own heads about how well they "pass" as a woman and thus police their own femininity to a point where it does nothing but hurt us all, but that's a unique issue.

9/8/2025, 5:20:17 PM | 5 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i'm not a big fan of the idea that we're more strict in gender roles than we were in the 70s, but i think the perception of that almost entirely comes from algorithmic-driven social media. turns out gender works phenomenally well as a thing to tag something with for algorithmic pushes.

9/8/2025, 5:16:31 PM | 7 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

use them as negative reinforcement; for each time men-focused gender discourse happens, a new warhead goes off. soon enough people will either learn or not be around to have the discourse.

9/8/2025, 5:13:59 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

detonate a low-yield nuclear warhead

9/8/2025, 4:54:29 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

assuming college is a scam works under the assumption that money is the only benefit of college which plays right into the kinds of ideas we decry so much.

9/8/2025, 3:42:05 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i'd decorate it myself but go kind of batshit with it tbh. make everything so green it hurts your eyes, why not.

8/8/2025, 5:45:41 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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one of the easiest and worst functions of online culture is to serve you back your own despair

7/8/2025, 8:15:50 PM | 596 102 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

(incredibly petty mode activated do not indulge me) it's a platform for people to post about their epic sapphic erotica featuring blood and gore and then turn around and wince and say rap is too violent.

7/8/2025, 9:44:48 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

how dare you imply i'm not chill enough. surely my aloof and venomous attacks will make you rethink this statement.

7/8/2025, 7:41:09 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i'll start: i've been re-listening to I Against I by Bad Brains a lot recently. it's a good album and i wish more punk music recognized the connection between reggae and punk and generally recognized black rock more.

7/8/2025, 7:10:23 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

yeah i also have overwhelmingly favored insular/interest focused social media largely because it feels like you're connecting with a person as opposed to just bonding over shared grievances which feels a lot more healthy and pro-social. it does stink that there's not much positive spillover, though.

7/8/2025, 6:56:39 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

anyone here listen to any good music lately

7/8/2025, 6:50:32 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i think there's a potentially good lesson underneath the ragebait about just posting for the hell of it (people are not microblogging on the microblogging site) but that's few and far between on Bluesky, the nothing app.

7/8/2025, 6:50:19 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

i think media analysis filled a good niche here as it got people to talk about things they like with other people while also broadening their ideological horizons (and probably is a non-insignificant reason why feminist analysis was targeted so badly by smear campaigns).

7/8/2025, 5:51:24 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

this isn't me saying that leftists/liberals/socialists/whatever denomination you choose need to shut up and talk like the Cool Boys or whatever, but instead that we could learn from the success of other platforms and how they grow from relating to people as opposed to picking at the scabs of anxiety

7/8/2025, 5:49:56 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

yeah the algorithm there is *ruthless* for newer accounts with less followers coz those are probably what is deemed as the most susceptible to propaganda. however, if you have an established foothold, the site generally has people talking about video games and music and what have you.

7/8/2025, 5:47:02 PM | 3 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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say what you will about die alles app but at least on that site you can talk about shit that isn't donald trump.

7/8/2025, 5:12:56 PM | 3 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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as a new user i've felt that there's just zero ability to find anyone interested in talking about anything but politics. it leads to the same voices just arguing endlessly over crap we all agree on which i imagine is horrible for any user retention or positive experience.

7/8/2025, 5:12:32 PM | 12 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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more proof for my theorem of "all anti-AI art arguments are flawed because they assumed anyone had respect for those who made art in the first place"

6/8/2025, 2:55:26 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social)

when nagash was still a part of the order pantheon do you think sigmar was getting #InThere

5/8/2025, 7:05:39 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

Profile picture computeruser338217.bsky.social (@computeruser338217.bsky.social) reply parent

like the goal for looking at gendered socialization should be stuff like "oh i bet i feel embarrassed trying to pick up drawing or learning to cook because those are deemed feminine by society and i was not deemed feminine by society" and not like using your big brain to blast people apart online.

5/8/2025, 6:51:44 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i think gendered socialization is an *incredibly* useful tool for psychological self-analysis but using that on someone else as an armchair analysis is sociopathic my god.

5/8/2025, 6:36:30 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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how dare you imply i'm a weird person who wants to pick a fight with a stranger

2/8/2025, 4:40:00 AM | 6 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i think society-wide we're baked in a heteronormative "dominance" mindset towards sexuality that leads us to view anything "effeminate" as being weak and submissive and thus ripe for sexuality to be imposed.

1/8/2025, 3:07:57 PM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i can't say that it wasn't influenced by bad experiences, though. my ex girlfriend was very domineering of my expression (very dangerous when you are 15 and your girlfriend is 17 about to turn 18) and i retreated a lot for a few years and the transition to college gave me time to look inside.

1/8/2025, 5:10:27 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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expected of me. i think talking to people i trusted closely helped me explore this in a safe way and led to me deciding more on my identity myself rather than letting it be a blank slate made to please others.

1/8/2025, 5:09:02 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i actually started to forge my own identity proper. i had known i was transgender since i was 14(!!!) yet it took me another 4 years to realize that the self i had created online and the self i had assigned to me by my family needed to synthesize somehow and truly become *me* and not what was-

1/8/2025, 5:07:28 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i totally feel that. i came from a large and blended poor household where people were largely assigned utility as it was needed, and as i was the "gifted" child i had a large amount of my life plotted out especially after my sister had fallen into drugs. it really was only the start of college when-

1/8/2025, 5:06:03 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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certainly is a hidden level of difficulty with socialization that isn't spoken of often because it's not relatable. a lot of more known autistic social traits are broadly relatable to everyone especially in a world favoring fragmentation, but "impossibly high dunbar's number" is not one of those.

1/8/2025, 5:02:25 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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doesn't help that i use this site largely when waking up or going to bed (habit i need to rectify) when emotions are most susceptible to being swayed so i end up just feeling that glass barrier grate against me harder and harder. i do not like the narratives of suffering around autism, but there-

1/8/2025, 5:00:23 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i'm 6 foot and built like a linebacker (and was scouted to be one in high school) and i'm proud of that and many other "masculine" features and especially "masculine" interests, but i do not think that erodes any of my femininity or who i am as a person.

1/8/2025, 4:58:18 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i slept on it a few days and i think i'm realizing that many people go online for the airing of the grievances to whet their antisocial nature which clashes really hard with my incredibly strong inclination towards earnest positive sociability. i just like talking to people with no strings attached.

1/8/2025, 4:56:04 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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personally, i still just refer to myself as a woman even if i recognize that i have an intrinsic link with my inner child who was a boy. i'm not repulsed by that past nor do i think it makes me any less of a woman, in fact i think that experience has enriched my connection to my womanhood more.

1/8/2025, 4:53:54 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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"femboy" to me has felt like a woke spin on objectifying women while other stuff like "twink" or whatever just feels like eating disorder chic. i think after a point the real \#GenderNuke would be an effeminate person just referring to themselves as "a regular guy" or something.

1/8/2025, 4:52:19 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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really this goes for all forms of intolerance and one could argue is the root of the malignant aspects of the human condition. learning to ask yourself "why does this make me mad/scared?" is important and being able to follow that up with "what should i do to make myself less mad/scared?" is vital.

1/8/2025, 4:10:09 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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the kind of people who thought hawk tuah was a climactic own against queer people

1/8/2025, 4:00:08 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i've been beating this drum since like 2022 but i think too many people substitute politics for other hobbies and interests and that corrodes the spirit like no other. i don't think we need to pretend nothing's happening but i think the endless stream we've dipped our head in is not good for us.

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it definitely shouldn't stick with me nearly as much as it does, but i had a very queer friend say to my face "i expected you to be a lot more sexually interesting given that you're trans, so it's weird that you're so normal" and it's left me wondering if there is some kind of deficit i have.

29/7/2025, 8:51:12 PM | 2 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i've unfortunately developed a sort of inferiority complex about not being good at being trans because i don't fit the super cutting-edge and "deviant" expectation that is set up for trans women online. outside of my very immediate friends i don't know many "normie" trans women and it feels weird.

29/7/2025, 8:49:24 PM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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yeah *exactly*. i think we lost a lot of nuance when we ceded and decided "actually the things we consume do not shape who we (are unless i want to make a convenient gotcha post)." ultimately, we become what we behold, and i think it's exceptionally salient when it's something we feel ashamed of.

28/7/2025, 5:36:11 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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sorry if any of this sounds condescending or anything btw, i'm autistic and i've been dying to use the four years of psychology and gender studies courses i've taken at college when talking to other people.

28/7/2025, 5:29:52 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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the porn script of "petite young blonde gets BlackedTM by 5 buff black men" preys on the same kind of mental schema that the "super-predator" myth originates from as well. we view black men as more masculine and thus more dangerous and the porn we consume in hushed tones amps that a ton.

28/7/2025, 5:29:08 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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media but this is usually more insidious because of the specific power dynamics at play often preying on pre-existing racial insecurities that exist at the heart of many white americans. these also end up being aggrandized by non-sexual media's view of minorities, *especially* black people.

28/7/2025, 5:27:29 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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it's hard to separate one from the other and ultimately they lead to the same assessment of the world. you cozy up to the idea of the taboo of racism being thrilling and over time you start to view the world less in the lens of reality and more in the lens of a specific script. this happens with all

28/7/2025, 5:26:10 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i think the modern race science revival might be tied to raceplay porn, for one. that one's miserable for all involved to discuss, though, so i don't really ever expect that idea to get any traction and i don't blame people for avoiding it.

28/7/2025, 5:11:43 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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it outright at risk of having random ass scammers pounce on me, but i think if you're smart enough, then it shouldn't be hard four you to figure it out.

28/7/2025, 5:11:06 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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if you're some random person who scrolled through all this and want to directly speak to me on normal terms and maybe connect or something, i guess reach out to me on this platform or on discord. the username's the same on discord, but with one more number (thanks bsky character limits). i won't say

28/7/2025, 5:10:23 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i really wish there was a nice way to talk about this that wasn't fraught with incredibly touchy topics and not open to the conversation being shot in the head by someone who's mad at something maybe not relevant.

28/7/2025, 5:08:13 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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i'm of two minds on this, mostly because i think we massively under-estimate how sex-focused (and arguably sex-obsessed) cishet people are. i don't mean "oh they're overcompensating by backing porn bans" i mean "mass amounts of cishet centrists/conservatives fucking loathe porn bans". it's complex.

28/7/2025, 5:07:24 AM | 1 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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it's just fuckin exhausting to constantly have to deal with an internet perpetually in a state of argument, you know? it feels like everyone else *wants* the world to be mean and awful and for the internet to suck and everyone to be on the same 5 websites. surely there's more to life than this.

28/7/2025, 5:05:30 AM | 0 0 | View on Bluesky | view

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to the same bullshit discourse and such that often follows in the wake of porn-based accounts. i'm not dense enough to say that they're all amoral people or anything, but it is crazy just how little nuance is afforded by InflationMutt49's post about how prudish gen Z is becoming or whatever.

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