And honestly the reason why I didn't stream was because I didn't want to deal with that for the rest of my life. Living in silence was more peaceful than being constantly reminded of that whole situation, and constantly explaining what was lied about on his end. For a decade.
I have no words, but you're my friend and I wish that you hadn't had to live through all of this.
I told the police he was hurting me and more but they didnt do anything lol even when i saw suspicious shit on his computer glad the system caught up to him now but how many more people had to suffer in the hands of this monster in that decade?
anytime I tried to leave he would make up posts, fake up stories and more about how I'm cheating, I'm doing x y z and more. He would purposely sabotage job opportunities or get me fired to try to make me financially depend on him. Being a woman in the gaming field is fun!
it was fun having thousands of people call me a cheater on faked up posts and chat logs, having no way to defend myself and sitting in silence while I was being /literally abused as well/. it took courage to finally leave and be literally homeless for awhile till i got back up on my feet.
my therapist said I'm 'under extreme ptsd' and I've even told leads at current jobs that I cannot handle men yelling or being angry, it is literally a trigger. I used to love thunderstorms but loud sounds scare me now
Always thought I could just silently get over it. When his ex-wife told me about the court sentencing I knew I could finally speak my own truth and not feel so scared all the time about the what-ifs.
I am in a lot of pain today, but I will be ok.
I remember that period of time very well. I’m so sorry you had to go through that all these years later 🤍
