Death, Surveillance Capitalism, & Moral Bankruptcy. I was struck by how brief his stories were, just a few pages. He must've written them a few minutes & then drank & drugged & whored for months on end after the advance money or book sales money rolled in. Every single one of the 7 men sitting by me
at the 8 terminals here in the Lexington Public Library are homeless & stinky. It's interesting to hear the convos of the years homeless talk at the Lexington Rescue Mission & watch in real-time the effects that the Strom Thurmond Cheeto Mussolini regime's decimation of Medicaid is having on the
most impoverished, worst off, of the hoi polloi. All the grant money has dried up, so you can't find an Obamaphone anywhere now. And after a decade of fascist violent rhetoric, the whites who run the repugnicunt flyover fiefdoms have made it illegal just to be homeless,🎵"& the riot squads, they're
restless, they need somewhere to go, as lady & I look out tonight on, Desolation Row" We walked a different way today w our maladies & pain, as we used to do in the City, when we'd always try to go a different way somewhere & back, when we were out & about, & loved life. So many gorgeous old houses
in downtown Lexington. We came upon the Lexington Public Library from the north, recalling when it was built & 1st opened w its facets of pink granite panels. It was poorly scaled & badly detailed, but it was the days of PoMo, so everything was back then when Michael Graves & Bob Stern's "caryakids"
were all the rage. So it seems in the world today, the only way to find housing if your family abandons you & they are a pair of untreated ACOAs & OCDs & covert narcissists, who always make you the scapegoat & enemy, is to check yourself into a 28-Day Rehab & then go to some faith-based horseshit
Sober Living kind of arrangement. I keep screaming at the top of my lungs, using my inside voice, that drugs & alcohol ain't my problem, my body, my mind, & trauma by the violent white state terrorists of Fremont County in white supremacist Colorado are, but all they wanna do is throw allopathic
drugs at you, and call it "medicine" & practicing it poorly, but they & Medicaid always pay, so they keep doing the same shit they've always done per the CPT Codes that work best, & there are no resources for people who just need a stable environment, & less interaction with the dangerous & chaotic
outside, after the cop trauma & the Complex PTSD, & the "split selves", & the anxiety disorder, & the PTSD w Somatic Response, started coming out after we left NYC in December of '17, & then did our ~220 Medicaid therapy sessions w Tricia, & for lack of an income, since the niggardly whites who run
SSDI have denied me twice in 5+ years, this last time, after 28 months of waiting, & Mr. Fernando n the Federal Benefits Unit in Manila having lost my paperwork for 8 months & threatening to close my case. It's hard out here for pimp. So, yeah, listening to the ignorance & stupid opinions of the
unwashed blathering masses at the LRM, today we heard a guy say that he was going to blow up Voices of Hope, because they had 20 people inside it sitting in cubicles, sucking at the teat of gubbermint & playing games on their phones. He thinks that all of it should be burned down & started over,