Game Dev, alleged writer, kind of comics person, former internet boogeyman. Please don’t tell anyone I’m here, I’m just trying to exist 🤫 they/them
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My "I was rendering assistance to a definitely real domestic violence victim before I was Meet Joe Blacked" t-shirt has people asking a lot of questions already answered by my shirt
I looooved have a heart, it was my go-to
I’m sorry for your loss.
You’re sweet
unfortunately
Yeah those “ethical” concerns he had about the disproven claims that I slept with a games journalist for a review that never existed of a free game sure did seem to not extend to him directly taking money from a political org under the agreement to never disclose it
Yeah. One of the influencers (David pakman) caped HARD for “it’s about ethics in games journalism” to the tune of platforming the founder of 8chan and Milo yiannopolis uncritically along with a bunch of other virulent dirty little alt right nobodies that would be unknowns without him
mood
do what you will I just would wanna know if it were me (not trying to tell you what to do with anything much less your social media)
They were quoting my post calling out an influencer who was instrumental to GamerGate “ethics” claims who just got outed for taking dark money from a political group and said I was like a Japanese ww2 soldier that didn’t know the war was over and got weird at me for questioning them on that
I miss conventions so much, but they’ll literally kill me now, so… Sucks that there’s basically no replacement for that networking or personal connection
went to go see him
Hey pax people:
You too huh? Solidarity :( 🖤
All the jobs these days seem to be either “we will pay you less than a living wage to ritualistically humiliate yourself for the rich” or “we will give you less money than you’d think to do unspeakably evil things” and I’m so fucking tired
He would happily sit and roll over for anyone who offered him an Uber eats gift code at this point
it’s like practicing being an asshole
legit that’s why I left that whole NPO space entirely and just do a bunch of mutual aid/direct action shit in my community and off social media. I’m tired of awareness, I’m tired of pundits, I’d be fully insane by now if I wasn’t literally feeding people in my neighborhood
AHAHAHA IS THAT WHAT THAT LOSER IS UP TO?
ffxiv did that for me while I was still bed bound recovering from a severe bout of covid so I feel that. Sometimes you really just need time to pass
they should just listen to you because you’re right but also you have an open invitation to hit me up and I will gladly throw a physical copy of the damn thing at these people at this point
Ooooh that makes me furious I swear to god some people will do anything to wriggle out of having to have even one critical thought
The whole thing is rotted end to end
Giving 2 weeks notice is such a scam
imo the sad reality is that most people don’t stand for a damn thing and are just trying to say the “right” words that won’t damage their self-concept
cool and normal system!!
wild how the biggest predictor of job security right now seems to be if your job is just being a huge piece of shit
because being a piece of shit has better job security than anything that is actually beneficial to society
god for real like passive aggression being so common just makes it hardcore diffcult to express unambiguous gentle “hey what do you think about —-“s and trust that they’ll land and not be understandably mistaken for a sneak attack
I’m not but thanks for asking all the same 🖤
(sorry for the tag just figured you might wanna know because I would in the opposite situation)
@fakerobotgamer.bsky.social @mithos343.bsky.social this your guy?
Don’t quote people’s posts if you don’t want a response bud.
It’s not my fault he’s in the news again but okay sure if you think “remembering things that happened” has any resemblance to people fighting a war that ended then bless your heart
OR the same shit keeps happening and not much has changed so I talk about things that happened as a case study/cautionary tale? the fuck?
tbh to hell with optimizing one’s recovery, shits hard enough. Compartmentalization is legit with some stuff, especially when you’ve already processed it and nothing more can be done anymore, and one can def be too judgy about one’s own healing. I will be hugging the cat snakes now tho, ty
I just wish it wasn’t negatively impacting my career while these garbage people have no money issues because we all made the mistake of being born into a system that rewards being just a bit more evil
and if you can avoid it, don’t get complex ptsd from people and things that continue to pop up in news cycles over a decade after the fact because boy howdy it is hell on your adrenal system and tummy
so please for the love of god, stay curious. look into shit before repeating or deeply internalizing it. don’t let ChatGPT or influencers do your thinking for you and form your own opinions after reviewing the actual facts as free from editorializing as you can get.
ESPECIALLY with how compromised so much of mainstream media is right now, don’t fall into the trap of thinking influencers are any better. They aren’t accountable to much, they’re a business, and they will exploit the parasocial connection they foster in their audience to stunt critical thinking
And as we continue to slide down into hell I’m still saying what I’ve been saying for a decade - what happened to me is a case study in how far right psychos can launder credibility of what boils down to white nationalism, and if we don’t know about these mechanisms they’re gonna keep on firing
I hate still talking about this bullshit today but I do this because this is literally how psycho fringe hate groups launder their credibility, this is who establishments like the DNC can buy and use, and this is a danger when it comes to viewing influencers as automatic journalists bc they say so
Because taking this position of “neutrality” and concern trolling about “journalistic ethics” (despite the review that I supposedly fucked someone for NEVER EXISTED) made him look like some “I’m not like other journalists” deep thinker for his hot takes and benefited the fringe lunatics both
Pakman was especially egregious because he did something for them that they couldn’t do - he granted these cretins credibility for people who didn’t have time to look too deeply. He worked overtime to make them look legitimate and that’s more damaging to me and the world than any death threat
Apparently it pays pretty fucking well
God sorry for the rant it’s just that every time one of the turds who launched a career by fucking my life up floats to the top of the toilet bowl it’s so hard not to be furious at how many apologies I’m owed that I won’t get and don’t want because they change absolutely nothing about my situation.
A lot of people didn’t care enough to pay attention when it was just happening to me despite me screaming that it was bigger than me and bigger than games
I wonder what the journalistic ethics of taking dark money to spew democrats talking points and agreeing never to disclose the connection are huh I mean he’s such a champion of journalistic ethics that I had to be sacrificed for them for the disproven allegation that I slept with a journalist right
“He was neutral” no he SAID he was neutral and oh so concerned with ethics in games journalism and I think after 10 years’ hindsight people can finally see that when I said he was BS and just a useful idiot for the far right to use in a culture war I wasn’t lying Dems picked a hell of a stooge tho
Never neutral, dude was a credibility whitewashing organ for them by uncritically siding with them constantly
Uncritically inviting people like Milo Yiannopolis and the founder of 8chan to spew white nationalist propaganda and actively helping the far right indoctrinate children into white nationalism under the guise of “ethical journalism” is a hell of an opening act for taking dark money l m a o
David Pakman going from GamerGate “it’s about ethics in games journalism” moron to accepting dark money to spew DNC-approved talking points in his “journalism” is SO FUCKING FUNNY www.wired.com/story/dark-m...
Tl;dr It’s widely considered to be the best take/storyline of the character with two comics legends so they’re trying to go with something that’s iconically good Hawkeye.
oh shit does stellaris have microtransactions or something? I would be COOKED
YEAH seriously, it's not my favorite kind of set to draft mechanically (too centered around getting bombs vs something like Tarkir which has tons of synergies and stuff) but I simp for the ffxiv and ffx representation. They did such a good job translating stuff from story -> mechanics too
and if one started to be tempted, there's no way the other would let them fall
I am legitimately so shit at strategy games though, I always end up just trying to do shit that won't win me the game
this is such a good answer holy shit those boys COMMIT.
OH YEAH that's definitely another one
I'm old and started playing before commander was a format (that I knew about anyway), then took a very long break from Lorwyn until Crimson Vow, then the kids made fun of me for saying "mana burn" at the crimson vow prerelease lol
"no no doc, you don't understand, I wasn't having a manic episode I just found out my oomfie was a milkshake duck" I cry as they put the grippy socks on me
after I lost a week to CK3 without really noticing, I decided not to download it
man I can't even get the island of Eire to get out of the middle ages without the holy roman empire punishing me for not colonizing anyone
true, sometimes you can't even get a proper jet black because I guess that's somehow too close to having character, and instead some corporate designer went "woah woah now, lower that saturation slider buddy you're flying too close to the sun"
tbh something I wanna start doing now that I'm getting alright with 3d modeling/printing is creating outer cases for normal shit that you can just stick on something to make it stop looking so god damned boring
hey! that's intellectually dishonest! sometimes the rectangles are also black.
it's such a useful one though because people really do love pulling that shit constantly
YES god anything where I can make a little snowglobe of a life that will always be better than the one I actually live in is a rat trap for my brain
oh jesus ok that game is going on my "I cannot be allowed near this" list.
infinity nikki had me in a chokehold for a little while but then the devs shot themselves in the foot for absolutely no reason by making the game worse in a major update
YES exactly, you get it. Somehow even MMOs didn't end up doing this to me
am I good at them? no. will I play 10,000 hours of them? yes unless stopped by force.
yknow I saw someone posting about a combined MTG/Kink night at some venue they work at recently and outside of the fact that the nerd and kinky person venn diagram being way too close to just being a circle, looking at it through that lens makes even MORE sense
I'm a pervert who is just happy with rawdogging it and never looked into any mods
l m a o
(because this is the internet and I'm dangerously close to the follower count where people really start Bean Souping you - this is nothing about those games in particular and 100% talking about a me-problem)
things I'm not allowed to do due to a full awareness of my particular flavor combo of mental illnesses: - reinstall Crusader Kings III - get back into magic (drafting is fine but NO constructed formats) - gatcha games - warhammer (this one is more about knowing I will 100% never finish painting)
I legitimately have been telling my best friend for years that if he gets that steam notification of fate that I'm playing CKIII again, he needs to activate some mental health contingencies on my behalf. That game + depression = really bad time travel
egads! a scrub!
She has decided to take a nap in my sleeve
I have been both the people in this situation before so I can only sigh and offer camaraderie
dude didn’t even have his own reality show/bankrupt steak company what a cuck
Just a heads up to anyone using Firefox:
Ewww they’re so SMOOTH
becca is one of my oldest friends and needs help, if you can spare a bit please do
Now I’m sitting here having almost died from Covid, laid off from work because the games industry is on fire, and the best way to network (which is desperately needed because job hunting is full of AI slop and ghost postings) is a death trap for people like me that no one will acknowledge
Don’t have to tell me, I got shit on for pulling out of my first comic con where I was tabling and exhibiting back in 2020 and a bunch of people accused me of of “fearmongering”. Haven’t been to one since, which sucks for my career and there’s been no alternatives offered.
Form closes this weekend!
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WAS my flip flop
This has never happened before because my sweet silver girl gets antisocial when she wants to sleep! All 6 noodles in the noodle bowl!!!
I guess they stole my flip flop off my foot because they wanted to wear it
The immigration detention center in Florida's Everglades that officials have dubbed "Alligator Alcatraz" soon will hold no detainees
Godddd that sounds incredible
Nah they look to unappetizing
This might be my love language
every day of my life
it's also huge and delicious!